Sunday, November 26, 2006

A therapist once told me, “There is nothing wrong with you. It’s not you, it’s the other guys.”

A mother once told me, “You are such a great guy, any person would be lucky to have you in their life.”

My mother once told me, “I love you more life itself, I know one day you will find a guy who will make you happy.”

A few years and some months later I’m still wondering if these statements are going to come true. I know, I know, another DRUNK post about men. Sorry. Deal with it. It’s on my mind.

I find the small ironies in life funny. I find my supposed love life funny.

SO, I have to so stop drinking and opening up my laptop. One day I’m going to actually write truth.

Hoe.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Ah, the start of a new month, a new season and fresh drama.

Sometimes I feel like after everything I’ve been through I still haven’t learned a lesson. But right now, I can tell you that I have. I am not doing it again. And it is drama. Getting in between people, dealing with the he said, she said stuff. I just don’t have the time or energy for it. It’s time for me to stop worrying about a boyfriend and start worrying about how I’m going to pay for the meal after graduation. If I am to enter into a serious relationship or even think about one, the drama has to be gone.

What’s interesting about all this is the fact that a couple of days ago, I started to write a blog post, here’s what I had:

I’ve gotten to the point that I don’t blog when something significant happens in my life. I sure as heck don’t like that! I have felt a blog post brewing for a while, but have never gotten around to it. A few times when I was drunk I wanted to post but I decided it wouldn’t be wise. I’m sick of coming to my blog and reading another depressing post about people with testosterone. So, this one will have other stuff in it too.

So yeah, I’ll continue on with that train of thought.

School is going well. I think I will make my first C since I have been at Georgia Southern. My Theories of Mass Comm class isn’t hard, it just requires a lot of thought and reading and my head has just not been in the game. All my other classes are coming along nicely. I guess SGC did get me ready for the big leagues. They did a great job.

The Buzz. I love and hate that radio station. I love when things go right and I can just sit back and listen to some fun, creative radio, then there are other times when I just want to quit and walk away. I guess anything you love this much has a huge affect on you. The morning show is amazing. When we are on, we are on, and I love it. There’s nothing like having someone stop you during the day and telling you that they laughed so hard listening to the show they couldn’t breathe or something like that. I want to do morning radio. Simple as that. My plan of attack needs to start forming soon so I know what I’m going to do.

Life in general. I have generally happy disposition on life these days. Earlier this semester I was down and thought I wasn’t going to come up, but of course, like always, the clouds lifted and I came back. This year I have made some incredible friendships that I hope to keep for a lifetime. I always knew friends were important, but I never have depended on people as much as I do now. Just having someone call you for lunch or just to hang out and watch TV is awesome. It’s nice to know that people are thinking about you and want to spend time in your presence. And I love learning from these people. So many life lessons have been spelled out for me this semester, and if it weren’t for all the good and bad, I wouldn’t have learned.

Alrighty, so as I’ve been typing, the situation from the first paragraph as been playing out in my mind. I have got to promise myself that I will not comprise myself to be with someone because they have shown interest. I can’t do that again.

I’m done. So tired right now.

Good day!