First week of sophomore year can probably be summed up in one word: HELL!
This week has been horrible. I’ve almost had one nervous breakdown this week. Let me help you all out: DON’T TAKE 18 HOURS AND BE INVLOVED IN OTHER CLUBS!! IT’S JUST NOT POSSIBLE!!
Ok, I’m done – that felt good. This week has been filled with lots of worrying, but the funny thing is I have no earthly idea what exactly I was worrying about. I think having 18 hours, being involved in clubs, having to work, having some thing of a social life just got to me subconsciously – but it slipped out and permeated into my conscious mind. DAMN that brain of mine! I think after talking with some people I’m better. I just have to realize that every decision I make right now is not going to determine the rest of my life. Even though it really does, I don’t have to focus on it ALL the time. Which I tend to do.
So there are these words that have been circling around my mind for a while, and I don’t know what to do with them. I guess it would help if I wrote down the words: Love, relationships, passion …words like that. Right now it feels like I have several avenues to get to have those words come to life, but I don’t know which way to take it. There’s Victor in Lavtia (I hope I spelled that correctly) who I have been talking to over the net for most of the summer. I know I told certain friends that I wasn’t going to do this anymore, but when you live in Douglas, GA and have nothing else to do, you have to find something to pass the time. We have been talking for a while and I feel like we have gotten close, but there’s only one thing that’s kind of making me be hesitant: I’ve never met him in real life before. I wish he lived here in the states, that would be so cool. He’s an awesome person; I think he can speak like three languages. He just graduated from college over there – he’s into graphic and web design. He seems like such the great package, but there’s that one thing, I’ve never met him before. I’m hoping that he will get to come over to America some time soon so I can meet him. I hope I don’t sound like a total loser! lol
Ok, well it’s 12:30 and I have a 9 am class tomorrow, or I guess I should say later this morning. History at 9:00 am, yay.
Poptarts are cool, and so is yo mama. =)
Sunday, August 22, 2004
I’ve been at school for almost a week now, and of course the drama started as soon as I got here, but thank God I wasn’t in the middle of it. I was more of an innocent by stander, like usual.
Let’s just go through a run down of the week thus far:
Tuesday: Woke up was early and got on the rode at like 8 am to haul ass to Douglas. The trip usually takes four hours; it took me three, thank you very much. I got here in Douglas, had lunch with Frier, Musgrove, and Frier’s brother. I met up with Jeff (Resident Manager) to get my STUFF out of storage. It took me an hour and a half to unload my car and get all my crap from storage. Catie came over and helped me unpack. Being the proud ambivalent person that I am, I couldn’t decide on how I wanted to arrange my room, so we just hung my clothes up and unpacked some more crap. After that, we went to her house and hung out for a while. A little later in the evening Catie and I ventured over to Drew’s house where Mark and Pepijn were. Drama happened – I watched in awe and surprise as it all unfolded before my little brown eyes. I don’t want to go into details (it’s not my place to tells people’s business), but it got pretty messy.
Wednesday: Because of the drama of the above group of people. I was asked to go with Catie to take Pepijn to the University of Florida in Gainesville, FL where Pepijn will be attending school for the first time. It was such a beautiful campus. The bookstore, the union, the dorms (or as I would like to say, fucking beautiful dorms), the pool at the dorms, the hot guys playing basketball on the basketball court at the dorms…I digress… so anyhow, we took him around campus making sure he had all of his ducks lined up before school classes started. Pepijn’s roommate, who is VERY hott by the way, came along for the ride. His name is Wax, and he’s a hot British Asian guy, mmmmm…..After wards, Catie and I headed back to Douglas. I was very depressed going back to SGC. Being on such a beautiful and lively campus like the University of Florida really made me question why I’m at SGC.
Thursday: Woke up way to early to start checking in the freshman into the dorms. There are only two times that I hate being an RA, when we have to 1) Check people in during the Fall and Spring semesters, and 2) When we have to check people out at the end of each semester. But most of the new freshmen are cool, none of them look like murders or a rapist, which is a good thing, I think. Later that night I went and spent some time with Kayla and Ashley. We watched the Olympics…those Hamm twins are FUNNY sounding. You would think they would have deep bass sounding voices, but when they open their mouths, they sound like aliens or something.
Friday: More checking in of the freshman, FINALLY getting paid for my week of working at Barnes and Noble during the little summer break that I did have. OH, and I actually broke a promise to myself. I went to a high school football game. Yes, I, Miguel, went to a high school football game. The Coffee High Trojans VS the Ware County High Gators. I can’t believe I actually went; I made it a point never to go to a game during high school. When I was on Homecoming Court senior year, I left after the ceremony on the football field, I had NO desire to stay and watch a football game between guys that I had no respect for. But things are different now, I don’t know these kids and it was fun to go and hang out with some cool people. I met Brandon at the game, he was cool.
Saturday: Finally did some cleaning around my poor little room, washed the clothes so I wouldn’t smell bad the first week of school. Kayla, Ashley, Nicky, Catie, and Sam treated me to Golden Corral for my birthday. That was fun, all of us sitting there stuffing our faces (expect for Sam, she didn’t want to eat) and laughing over nothing in particular. Those are the moments in life that make it worth living.
Sunday (My 19th birthday): Well it’s 3 in the morning on my birthday and I’m sitting on my computer writing in my blog, fun. Let’s see, tonight I went to Movie Gallery and rented, “The Prince and Me.” I know, I know…I like the chick flicks, what can I say? But I enjoyed the movie. It made me incredibly sad afterwards though – it made me face the truth about love. NO ONE is EVER going to come along and “save” you from your life. NO ONE is EVER going to be that “perfect” one. They might be close, but it they will never be perfect. I hate that, I wish there was that one perfect person for me out there. I could sit here and type out off of the qualities I would want this gentlemen to have, but I’m way too tired and it would just make me sad all over again.
But yes, it’s August 22nd, 2004 – I was born 19 years ago. Thank you mother!
Well hopefully I will have time this week to update on the happenings of the first week of class. Until next time my loves….
Let’s just go through a run down of the week thus far:
Tuesday: Woke up was early and got on the rode at like 8 am to haul ass to Douglas. The trip usually takes four hours; it took me three, thank you very much. I got here in Douglas, had lunch with Frier, Musgrove, and Frier’s brother. I met up with Jeff (Resident Manager) to get my STUFF out of storage. It took me an hour and a half to unload my car and get all my crap from storage. Catie came over and helped me unpack. Being the proud ambivalent person that I am, I couldn’t decide on how I wanted to arrange my room, so we just hung my clothes up and unpacked some more crap. After that, we went to her house and hung out for a while. A little later in the evening Catie and I ventured over to Drew’s house where Mark and Pepijn were. Drama happened – I watched in awe and surprise as it all unfolded before my little brown eyes. I don’t want to go into details (it’s not my place to tells people’s business), but it got pretty messy.
Wednesday: Because of the drama of the above group of people. I was asked to go with Catie to take Pepijn to the University of Florida in Gainesville, FL where Pepijn will be attending school for the first time. It was such a beautiful campus. The bookstore, the union, the dorms (or as I would like to say, fucking beautiful dorms), the pool at the dorms, the hot guys playing basketball on the basketball court at the dorms…I digress… so anyhow, we took him around campus making sure he had all of his ducks lined up before school classes started. Pepijn’s roommate, who is VERY hott by the way, came along for the ride. His name is Wax, and he’s a hot British Asian guy, mmmmm…..After wards, Catie and I headed back to Douglas. I was very depressed going back to SGC. Being on such a beautiful and lively campus like the University of Florida really made me question why I’m at SGC.
Thursday: Woke up way to early to start checking in the freshman into the dorms. There are only two times that I hate being an RA, when we have to 1) Check people in during the Fall and Spring semesters, and 2) When we have to check people out at the end of each semester. But most of the new freshmen are cool, none of them look like murders or a rapist, which is a good thing, I think. Later that night I went and spent some time with Kayla and Ashley. We watched the Olympics…those Hamm twins are FUNNY sounding. You would think they would have deep bass sounding voices, but when they open their mouths, they sound like aliens or something.
Friday: More checking in of the freshman, FINALLY getting paid for my week of working at Barnes and Noble during the little summer break that I did have. OH, and I actually broke a promise to myself. I went to a high school football game. Yes, I, Miguel, went to a high school football game. The Coffee High Trojans VS the Ware County High Gators. I can’t believe I actually went; I made it a point never to go to a game during high school. When I was on Homecoming Court senior year, I left after the ceremony on the football field, I had NO desire to stay and watch a football game between guys that I had no respect for. But things are different now, I don’t know these kids and it was fun to go and hang out with some cool people. I met Brandon at the game, he was cool.
Saturday: Finally did some cleaning around my poor little room, washed the clothes so I wouldn’t smell bad the first week of school. Kayla, Ashley, Nicky, Catie, and Sam treated me to Golden Corral for my birthday. That was fun, all of us sitting there stuffing our faces (expect for Sam, she didn’t want to eat) and laughing over nothing in particular. Those are the moments in life that make it worth living.
Sunday (My 19th birthday): Well it’s 3 in the morning on my birthday and I’m sitting on my computer writing in my blog, fun. Let’s see, tonight I went to Movie Gallery and rented, “The Prince and Me.” I know, I know…I like the chick flicks, what can I say? But I enjoyed the movie. It made me incredibly sad afterwards though – it made me face the truth about love. NO ONE is EVER going to come along and “save” you from your life. NO ONE is EVER going to be that “perfect” one. They might be close, but it they will never be perfect. I hate that, I wish there was that one perfect person for me out there. I could sit here and type out off of the qualities I would want this gentlemen to have, but I’m way too tired and it would just make me sad all over again.
But yes, it’s August 22nd, 2004 – I was born 19 years ago. Thank you mother!
Well hopefully I will have time this week to update on the happenings of the first week of class. Until next time my loves….
Monday, August 16, 2004
Hmmm…well I started to write a post about how nice guys finish last, but I’ve changed my mind on that post. I’ve gone through several different emotions tonight. First I was content, then bored, then hurt, and then embarrassed, now angry, well not angry, just…I don’t know.
I used to get so upset at the fact that I could never find anyone to “love me” or ‘like me.” Bullshit. I think that gay men, or maybe just me, put way too much stock into what other “hot” men think of them. It’s so tiresome always worrying if you have on the right clothes, or if you’re acting too gay, or not gay enough. I feel like I’m back in high school! And I really would not want to revisit that place again! And you know what’s not cool either, people who smell. Just thought I would put that in there for some thought.
Things to think about this week:
1) My birthday is Sunday, I turn 19.
2) I return to South Georgia tomorrow (Tuesday).
3) I bought Ashlee Simpson’s cd, and I actually like it.
4) Every time I come home I always leave with no money…maybe I should never come home…
5) People suck
6) Being alone is just dandy, or that’s what I keep telling myself.
7) Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
8) Frier is right, all the time: Who’s the source?!?!?!
9) TRUE friends are hard to come by.
10) What the hell am I going to do with my life?
11) Am I a sexy beast?
12) Am I a beast?’
13) Am I a fat beast?
14) I miss Buffy.
15) School starts next Monday, crap and a half.
16) Why doesn’t money grow on trees?
17) If your up at 3:00 in the morning, you really have problems…so why don’t you come over and we will all have problems together!
18) YAY.
19) I love cows.
I used to get so upset at the fact that I could never find anyone to “love me” or ‘like me.” Bullshit. I think that gay men, or maybe just me, put way too much stock into what other “hot” men think of them. It’s so tiresome always worrying if you have on the right clothes, or if you’re acting too gay, or not gay enough. I feel like I’m back in high school! And I really would not want to revisit that place again! And you know what’s not cool either, people who smell. Just thought I would put that in there for some thought.
Things to think about this week:
1) My birthday is Sunday, I turn 19.
2) I return to South Georgia tomorrow (Tuesday).
3) I bought Ashlee Simpson’s cd, and I actually like it.
4) Every time I come home I always leave with no money…maybe I should never come home…
5) People suck
6) Being alone is just dandy, or that’s what I keep telling myself.
7) Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
8) Frier is right, all the time: Who’s the source?!?!?!
9) TRUE friends are hard to come by.
10) What the hell am I going to do with my life?
11) Am I a sexy beast?
12) Am I a beast?’
13) Am I a fat beast?
14) I miss Buffy.
15) School starts next Monday, crap and a half.
16) Why doesn’t money grow on trees?
17) If your up at 3:00 in the morning, you really have problems…so why don’t you come over and we will all have problems together!
18) YAY.
19) I love cows.
Thursday, August 05, 2004
UPDATE:
1) Finals are over – they sucked!
2) I might fail Biology – who gives a crap! (Actually, I do, but I am trying to pretend as if I don’t!)
3) I just finished the newspaper layout for the August edition and its kick ass! I cannot wait for everyone to see the new layout/design of the paper.
4) I am going to home tomorrow – I am excited, yet scared of going home. When I go home I spend wayyy to much money on gas, food, etc…but I cannot afford that right now. I have to be strict with my money.
5) I have totally fallen off my Weight Watchers program…I have GOT to get back in line.
6) I do not like Biology.
7) I like Spanish, but Spanish verbs are a bitch.
8) Big Brother comes on in ten minutes and I am excited – loser!
9) I am excited to see everyone from home.
10) I hope this fall brings many new and exciting situations and people.
11) I’m happy I met Catie and Mark this summer, they seem like cool people.
12) My birthday is the 22nd of this month and I really hope it doesn’t suck this year!
So that pretty much sums up everything I have been thinking about today, the day before I leave for home. I probably will not be able to update while I am in Atlanta…seeing as how my family doesn’t like to pay for an internet connection (HELLO, we are in 2004, are we not?!?!).
Until next time…
1) Finals are over – they sucked!
2) I might fail Biology – who gives a crap! (Actually, I do, but I am trying to pretend as if I don’t!)
3) I just finished the newspaper layout for the August edition and its kick ass! I cannot wait for everyone to see the new layout/design of the paper.
4) I am going to home tomorrow – I am excited, yet scared of going home. When I go home I spend wayyy to much money on gas, food, etc…but I cannot afford that right now. I have to be strict with my money.
5) I have totally fallen off my Weight Watchers program…I have GOT to get back in line.
6) I do not like Biology.
7) I like Spanish, but Spanish verbs are a bitch.
8) Big Brother comes on in ten minutes and I am excited – loser!
9) I am excited to see everyone from home.
10) I hope this fall brings many new and exciting situations and people.
11) I’m happy I met Catie and Mark this summer, they seem like cool people.
12) My birthday is the 22nd of this month and I really hope it doesn’t suck this year!
So that pretty much sums up everything I have been thinking about today, the day before I leave for home. I probably will not be able to update while I am in Atlanta…seeing as how my family doesn’t like to pay for an internet connection (HELLO, we are in 2004, are we not?!?!).
Until next time…
Sunday, August 01, 2004
All good things must come an end...well I wouldn't call summer school a good thing, but it's almost over. This week we have finals, then Monday I am off to Atlanta to get some much needed rest. I think this is the worse I have done in school since, I can't even remember when I have done this bad in school. I am oh so close to FAILING Biology. Me, Miguel, Mr. Overachiever is about an inch from failing Biology. I have NEVER liked Biology, nor do I think I ever will. I would much rather stress over a history test where I least have some grasp of what's going on, than Biology where I feel like I don't understand anything. And as soon as I think I do understand something, the Biology Professor will ask me a question about the material and my mind just goes blank. IT SUCKS! JESUS PLEASE don't let me fail Biology! I can't, if I do, then I should pack it up and not even think about going to UGA. I guess I'll just have to head on over to Georgia Southern....
In other news..the newspaper is looking really good. It seems as if my creative side is finally opening up - I'm able to come up with some great layouts for the newspaper. I'm excited for the paper to come and see what everyone thinks about it. I love the front page of the paper, I think it's so cool. I have my eye on some new Freshman who I think would fit well with the rest of the newspaper staff. The first two weeks of school I'm going to go on a major recruiting hunt to scoop up the talented, committed new people for the newspaper staff.
I've had the pleasure if hanging out with some local folks from school this weekend. Friday I went to Valdosta with Jeff and we saw 'The Village.' I thought the movie was awesome - the ending was like, wow, I can't believe it... I then came back, looked at some Biology notes, took a nap, then went to dinner with Catie, Sam, and Pete. That was fun, just chilling out with people at dinner and talking about nothing in particular, just hanging. I don't get many moments like that...I'm always running to and fro, or trying to get a few minutes of sleep in. I took the three of them to the dorms so they could see the horror that is college dorms. They were all horrified at the jail like quality of the dorms - but to me it's become home. But that might explain why I spend most of my time in the newspaper office rather than my room. Here's a look at a picture Catie took with her camera phone...
Then I rode around with Catie and Sam...they took me to Coffee High, where they graduated from high school. I have to say, it put Roswell High to shame. I always thought we had a nice spread out school, but there high school is huge. But then again all of Coffee County goes there so they have to have a pretty big school. They rolled down the big hills at the school, I didn't roll. I didn't want to get dirty. (I know, I'm sad)
So that was that...yesterday I worked on the newspaper and was really happy so I went to Subway to treat myself. I ran into Catie and Mark there. I was leaving and they were coming so I decided to just stay and sit with them while they ate. It was fun just to sit and laugh, and that we did. Here are some photos that Catie took at Subway (I'm stealing them all from her live journal...thanks Catie!)
Catie and Mark
My hair looks a mess and I'm just...sad
Someone please stop me..
So that's pretty much been my weekend...right now I'm at the radio station working the Nascar race...fun, let me tell you. I've been studying for my Spanish final on Wednesday. When get back to the dorms, the studying for the Biology final starts again.
Next week I go home and work I Barnes and Noble (yay), and hang out with some old friends (yay).
I hate Nascar.
Hmmm...I think I need to do another list... Things I have learned this past week (and during this summer):
1) If someone from an Internet dating site e-mails you ten times in one day, it's time to BLOCK them.
2) If you pay $45 dollars to lose weight, you better damn well stick with it!
3) I'm now called 'Paper Fag' by friends from Douglas.
4) Why is EVERYONE in Douglas a Bush supporter? Well expect for those faithful few...
5) Don't ever do summer school again...
6) Don't inflict more stress on yourself than you already have.
7) Good friends are hard to come by.
8) I want my own radio show DAMN IT!
9) I need more money.
10) I turn 19 on the 22nd of this month.
11) I wish I weren't so numb to people.
12) Being alone sucks.
13) Don't ever do summer school again.
14) John Kerry rocks!
15) Anyone who tells me I can't compare the gay rights movement to the African-American civil rights movement can KISS MY ASS!!! Thank you very much!
16) I wish I had a better memory.
17) I don't like FOX News, CNN is better.
18) Don't ever do summer school again.
19) I hope is a good time to be alive this year.
20) I'm hungry and tired.
Until next time my doggies...or something....yeah...
In other news..the newspaper is looking really good. It seems as if my creative side is finally opening up - I'm able to come up with some great layouts for the newspaper. I'm excited for the paper to come and see what everyone thinks about it. I love the front page of the paper, I think it's so cool. I have my eye on some new Freshman who I think would fit well with the rest of the newspaper staff. The first two weeks of school I'm going to go on a major recruiting hunt to scoop up the talented, committed new people for the newspaper staff.
I've had the pleasure if hanging out with some local folks from school this weekend. Friday I went to Valdosta with Jeff and we saw 'The Village.' I thought the movie was awesome - the ending was like, wow, I can't believe it... I then came back, looked at some Biology notes, took a nap, then went to dinner with Catie, Sam, and Pete. That was fun, just chilling out with people at dinner and talking about nothing in particular, just hanging. I don't get many moments like that...I'm always running to and fro, or trying to get a few minutes of sleep in. I took the three of them to the dorms so they could see the horror that is college dorms. They were all horrified at the jail like quality of the dorms - but to me it's become home. But that might explain why I spend most of my time in the newspaper office rather than my room. Here's a look at a picture Catie took with her camera phone...
Then I rode around with Catie and Sam...they took me to Coffee High, where they graduated from high school. I have to say, it put Roswell High to shame. I always thought we had a nice spread out school, but there high school is huge. But then again all of Coffee County goes there so they have to have a pretty big school. They rolled down the big hills at the school, I didn't roll. I didn't want to get dirty. (I know, I'm sad)
So that was that...yesterday I worked on the newspaper and was really happy so I went to Subway to treat myself. I ran into Catie and Mark there. I was leaving and they were coming so I decided to just stay and sit with them while they ate. It was fun just to sit and laugh, and that we did. Here are some photos that Catie took at Subway (I'm stealing them all from her live journal...thanks Catie!)
Catie and Mark
My hair looks a mess and I'm just...sad
Someone please stop me..
So that's pretty much been my weekend...right now I'm at the radio station working the Nascar race...fun, let me tell you. I've been studying for my Spanish final on Wednesday. When get back to the dorms, the studying for the Biology final starts again.
Next week I go home and work I Barnes and Noble (yay), and hang out with some old friends (yay).
I hate Nascar.
Hmmm...I think I need to do another list... Things I have learned this past week (and during this summer):
1) If someone from an Internet dating site e-mails you ten times in one day, it's time to BLOCK them.
2) If you pay $45 dollars to lose weight, you better damn well stick with it!
3) I'm now called 'Paper Fag' by friends from Douglas.
4) Why is EVERYONE in Douglas a Bush supporter? Well expect for those faithful few...
5) Don't ever do summer school again...
6) Don't inflict more stress on yourself than you already have.
7) Good friends are hard to come by.
8) I want my own radio show DAMN IT!
9) I need more money.
10) I turn 19 on the 22nd of this month.
11) I wish I weren't so numb to people.
12) Being alone sucks.
13) Don't ever do summer school again.
14) John Kerry rocks!
15) Anyone who tells me I can't compare the gay rights movement to the African-American civil rights movement can KISS MY ASS!!! Thank you very much!
16) I wish I had a better memory.
17) I don't like FOX News, CNN is better.
18) Don't ever do summer school again.
19) I hope is a good time to be alive this year.
20) I'm hungry and tired.
Until next time my doggies...or something....yeah...
Friday, July 23, 2004
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
Today is a great day; no it’s a wonderful day. Why you ask? Well guess who lost seven pounds in one week? That would be me thank you very much! I’ve been on this program to become a healthier eater, and it’s been working! I’m so excited…I hope seven more come off this next week. I just really have to keep working at it.
So…this past week many things happened, it’s not terribly exciting, but it is life. Sunday night was the season finale of ‘Queer as Folk.’ It was awesome! I think the show has had more “Oh my God I can’t believe they did that” season finales, but this one was good in its own right. I especially liked the very last scene between Ben and Michael. As I posted last week, they were married in the last episode… they were wed in Canada. But when they tried to get back in the states the idiotic border patrol officer wouldn’t let them in with one sign in paper, or something like that. His reasoning? “The United States doesn’t recognize marriage between gays.” Fuck you, bitch (1st F bomb). BUT like I was saying before, the last scene had Michael and Ben in the bed together, Michael couldn’t sleep. He nudges Ben to wake him up. He then questions Ben about the realness of their “marriage.” Ben goes into this spill about how it doesn’t matter and blah blah…the best part, the part that I thought was SO symbolic and kick ass was the very last shot…their, um, doing “it” and they are holding their hands with both of their wedding bans on their fingers, the camera zooms in on just the two manly hands together with the bans on, and the shot fades to white. To me it seemed like a big “Fuck you” (2nd F bomb) to all the people who discredit gay marriages. Thank you ‘Queer as Folk’ for stating the obvious like no one else can.
Ok, sorry you had to read through all of that if you did…I had to write it all out, I’ve been thinking about that all day.
Summer school is wrapping up…THANK GOD! We have two weeks of class and then a week of finals. I can’t WAIT for summer school to be over. It has been so stressful. Every time I turn around there’s another freaking test! THREEWEEKS! But then I only get two weeks between summer and spring semester. But I plan on coming back to Atlanta…I’ll be there for a week, I’ll then return to Douglas the week after that. I have to come back early since I’m an RA. Yay for me.
WDMG. Things have been fun there these past couple of weeks. Today they had me come in and do some extra work since the secretary had to go to the Doctor. About a week ago they had me working the board for the weekly sports talk show. I was honored that they would even let me do that. Well the person who normally works the board has cd’s of music that he uses for the intros and outros of the show; well since he wasn’t there they didn’t have any music for the show. Well guess who had his CDs handy in his car to use? Me me me! Guess what cd I used for this South Georgia sports talk show….none other than my Queer As Folk cd!!! HA HA! They all liked the music and complimented me on my music taste. Thank you very much. Well they probably wouldn’t care where the music came from…I just thought it was funny.
Hmm… anything else going on? OH…tomorrow they (radio station) have me going to one of the polling places here in South Georgia and doing a live remote letting the audience know the results from that particular polling location. I’m so excited…this will be my very first live gig on the air. I hope I don’t mess up! It’s going to be so funny to imagine myself standing their trying to be a “real” journalist. HA!
Well that’s about it for me, nothing else to report on. I’m sure I’ll have lots to write about for next week… a lot is happening this week, but nothing to exciting.
Yay. (2 F bombs)
So…this past week many things happened, it’s not terribly exciting, but it is life. Sunday night was the season finale of ‘Queer as Folk.’ It was awesome! I think the show has had more “Oh my God I can’t believe they did that” season finales, but this one was good in its own right. I especially liked the very last scene between Ben and Michael. As I posted last week, they were married in the last episode… they were wed in Canada. But when they tried to get back in the states the idiotic border patrol officer wouldn’t let them in with one sign in paper, or something like that. His reasoning? “The United States doesn’t recognize marriage between gays.” Fuck you, bitch (1st F bomb). BUT like I was saying before, the last scene had Michael and Ben in the bed together, Michael couldn’t sleep. He nudges Ben to wake him up. He then questions Ben about the realness of their “marriage.” Ben goes into this spill about how it doesn’t matter and blah blah…the best part, the part that I thought was SO symbolic and kick ass was the very last shot…their, um, doing “it” and they are holding their hands with both of their wedding bans on their fingers, the camera zooms in on just the two manly hands together with the bans on, and the shot fades to white. To me it seemed like a big “Fuck you” (2nd F bomb) to all the people who discredit gay marriages. Thank you ‘Queer as Folk’ for stating the obvious like no one else can.
Ok, sorry you had to read through all of that if you did…I had to write it all out, I’ve been thinking about that all day.
Summer school is wrapping up…THANK GOD! We have two weeks of class and then a week of finals. I can’t WAIT for summer school to be over. It has been so stressful. Every time I turn around there’s another freaking test! THREEWEEKS! But then I only get two weeks between summer and spring semester. But I plan on coming back to Atlanta…I’ll be there for a week, I’ll then return to Douglas the week after that. I have to come back early since I’m an RA. Yay for me.
WDMG. Things have been fun there these past couple of weeks. Today they had me come in and do some extra work since the secretary had to go to the Doctor. About a week ago they had me working the board for the weekly sports talk show. I was honored that they would even let me do that. Well the person who normally works the board has cd’s of music that he uses for the intros and outros of the show; well since he wasn’t there they didn’t have any music for the show. Well guess who had his CDs handy in his car to use? Me me me! Guess what cd I used for this South Georgia sports talk show….none other than my Queer As Folk cd!!! HA HA! They all liked the music and complimented me on my music taste. Thank you very much. Well they probably wouldn’t care where the music came from…I just thought it was funny.
Hmm… anything else going on? OH…tomorrow they (radio station) have me going to one of the polling places here in South Georgia and doing a live remote letting the audience know the results from that particular polling location. I’m so excited…this will be my very first live gig on the air. I hope I don’t mess up! It’s going to be so funny to imagine myself standing their trying to be a “real” journalist. HA!
Well that’s about it for me, nothing else to report on. I’m sure I’ll have lots to write about for next week… a lot is happening this week, but nothing to exciting.
Yay. (2 F bombs)
Monday, July 12, 2004
Just got this e-mail, please sign:
Congress is about to vote on amending the U.S. Constitution to deny marriage equality to same-sex couples.
Never before has our Constitution been amended to take away anyone's rights. Yet our Senators will vote on this amendment in the next 48 hours.
It's urgent that we speak up now. This hateful divisiveness has no place in America. Please join me in saying so, at:
http://www.moveon.org/unitednotdivided/
Equality in marriage is the civil rights issue of our generation. We can't let anyone, or any group, be singled out for discrimination based on who they are or who they love.
Please call your Senators now, at:
Senator Zell B. Miller
Direct: (202) 224-3643
Senator Saxby Chambliss
Direct: (202) 224-3521
Urge them to:
"Protect marriage equality for everyone --
Vote NO on the Federal Marriage Amendment."
Congress is about to vote on amending the U.S. Constitution to deny marriage equality to same-sex couples.
Never before has our Constitution been amended to take away anyone's rights. Yet our Senators will vote on this amendment in the next 48 hours.
It's urgent that we speak up now. This hateful divisiveness has no place in America. Please join me in saying so, at:
http://www.moveon.org/unitednotdivided/
Equality in marriage is the civil rights issue of our generation. We can't let anyone, or any group, be singled out for discrimination based on who they are or who they love.
Please call your Senators now, at:
Senator Zell B. Miller
Direct: (202) 224-3643
Senator Saxby Chambliss
Direct: (202) 224-3521
Urge them to:
"Protect marriage equality for everyone --
Vote NO on the Federal Marriage Amendment."
Thanks to Alan for providing me with the link to the article about QAF on cnn.com.
Some great quotes from the this weeks episode:
"It wasn't a story I told myself, the way straight kids did, that one day I'd meet that special person, and we'd fall in love and have a big wedding. For me, it was never real."
"It's also our God-given right to have everything straight people have. Because we're as much human beings as they are."
-Michael (Hal Sparks)
Some great quotes from the this weeks episode:
"It wasn't a story I told myself, the way straight kids did, that one day I'd meet that special person, and we'd fall in love and have a big wedding. For me, it was never real."
"It's also our God-given right to have everything straight people have. Because we're as much human beings as they are."
-Michael (Hal Sparks)
Sunday, July 11, 2004
If you haven’t been watching Queer As Folk, then there is something wrong with you! I freaking love that show! I just finished watching this week’s new episode. The show is so awesome. Aside from the hot guys on the show, the writers make great commentary on the issues of today. Like this week’s episode – two of the characters (both of them men) got married in Canada. I almost started crying. To see the two guys, who are a normal family raising a teen, be able to have their love recognized by a state entity was truly beautiful.
When I was younger and growing up, I never got to see what two guys looked like getting married. I never got to dream about myself being married. Even now, before tonight, the thought of me being able to get married was a foreign one. But now that I’ve seen it, even though it is TV, it has made me really question the morality of people who say that gay marriage is wrong, or that it is chipping away at the social fabric of our society. What bullshit. Seeing those two people stand up on the alter before THEIR God, and become a legal married couple was truly inspiring. Seeing this episode has truly cemented my stance on gay marriage—full rights of gay marriage.
So now that I’ve had my inspiring moment of the week, I now need to go and study some more for my friggin Biology test tomorrow morning.
When I was younger and growing up, I never got to see what two guys looked like getting married. I never got to dream about myself being married. Even now, before tonight, the thought of me being able to get married was a foreign one. But now that I’ve seen it, even though it is TV, it has made me really question the morality of people who say that gay marriage is wrong, or that it is chipping away at the social fabric of our society. What bullshit. Seeing those two people stand up on the alter before THEIR God, and become a legal married couple was truly inspiring. Seeing this episode has truly cemented my stance on gay marriage—full rights of gay marriage.
So now that I’ve had my inspiring moment of the week, I now need to go and study some more for my friggin Biology test tomorrow morning.
Saturday, July 10, 2004
Ok, so I’m feeling pretty good right now. Usually I’d be all upset that I’m sitting in room studying Biology on a Friday night. But you ask why Miguel is happy this Friday night? Well ladies and gents, Miguel is studying Biology and he actually understands what he’s reading!! It’s awesome, he’s reading, understanding, and going on to the next section in the book. Who would have thought it? Awesome.
Thursday, July 01, 2004
So here’s the deal. I hate being one of those whiny people who sit around and complain about how bad their life is…For the past couple of weeks I have been like that, and I am sorry for anyone who has had to witness this deplorable behavior. I’m going to save all the whinyness, woo is me crap for my Blog, where it belongs!
So I’m in my room looking over the study guide for Part 2 of the Spanish Mid-term, which is tomorrow. I understand most of the stuff, but then I get to the verb part. Holy crap, I don’t know how to do ANY of that stuff. Conjugate what? I have Spanish class Lunes through Jueves, but my schedule was screwed up, so I have Biology lab at the same time as Spanish on Thursday. The day they went over conjugates, I was sitting in the Bio lab—great! I called Jesse and she said that she would help me in the morning with it. I have to take the midterm at like 11 in the morning, fun.
Hmmm…there’s more I want to write about, but I’m not sure how to put it…I guess I’ll run it over in my mind and then post sometime later on in the afternoon or evening.
So I’m in my room looking over the study guide for Part 2 of the Spanish Mid-term, which is tomorrow. I understand most of the stuff, but then I get to the verb part. Holy crap, I don’t know how to do ANY of that stuff. Conjugate what? I have Spanish class Lunes through Jueves, but my schedule was screwed up, so I have Biology lab at the same time as Spanish on Thursday. The day they went over conjugates, I was sitting in the Bio lab—great! I called Jesse and she said that she would help me in the morning with it. I have to take the midterm at like 11 in the morning, fun.
Hmmm…there’s more I want to write about, but I’m not sure how to put it…I guess I’ll run it over in my mind and then post sometime later on in the afternoon or evening.
Wednesday, June 30, 2004
If I EVER take more than one class for summer school, please shoot me! I am up to my eyeballs in work. This crap is freaking killing me—I’m so sick of school right now. I don’t understand the Spanish in Spanish class, I don’t freaking know what fatty acid tails are in Biology, and I sure as hell don’t care about the bodies response to shock in First Aid.. Midterms suck ass – big nasty juicy ass!
I think I am a bit overwhelmed right now. I don’t like to admit defeat, but I think right now I need to wave the white flag, or whatever flag I would wave at a time like this. The newspaper is beckoning me, the Gay-Straight Alliance, Student Government, and whatever freaking else I’m doing is calling for me to work on it. It sucks…yes it does.
BUT, there is one bright spot in all this gray crap…it’s a person, a person here in Douglas. Who you ask? Well I’m not telling. I’ve learned that if you type someone’s full name or parts of their name on your Blog, when they type their name in a search engine, your Blog, with their name, and what you said about them, will come up. I just don’t want to risk that right now. Ok, I’ve had my mind on said person for a while now. I’ve been getting bits of information about them over the course of a year. I actually got to talk to them last week at their place of employment. Well actually I didn’t talk to them, a friend of mine who knows said person talked to them while I stood to the side and tried to think of something witty and intelligent to say. Needless to say I didn’t. I just stood there and nodded my head in the right places of the conversation, and laughed when I needed to, but not my loud throw my head back laugh, but the subtle smile laugh…yeah. But said person mentioned that they broke up with their girlfriend three months ago, which would lead me to the conclusion that this person is not gay. But if you saw said person, the first thought you would have is: gay. Some people are just in denial, what can you do? But I don’t know what it is about this person, I’m not usually attracted to people like him, but I am! This person graduated from SGC this past spring and is going to a four year school near by in the fall.
In this type of situation I would normally A) Give up and bury myself in school work (done), or B) Act like I never liked the person in the first place, and go about my merry business. I can’t do that this time. I have spent most of this year trying to figure out this person from afar, they have me hooked—with out even knowing. I’m trying to get his e-mail from some mutual friends so I can e-mail him and ask if he would like to just hang out, you know, be his friend. Even if this didn’t go down the road I would like it to, he seems like he would be a cool friend.
Well I guess I’ll end it here, my fingers hurt and I need to study for my friggin First Aid mid-term at 5:30 today.
Buenos Tardes!
I think I am a bit overwhelmed right now. I don’t like to admit defeat, but I think right now I need to wave the white flag, or whatever flag I would wave at a time like this. The newspaper is beckoning me, the Gay-Straight Alliance, Student Government, and whatever freaking else I’m doing is calling for me to work on it. It sucks…yes it does.
BUT, there is one bright spot in all this gray crap…it’s a person, a person here in Douglas. Who you ask? Well I’m not telling. I’ve learned that if you type someone’s full name or parts of their name on your Blog, when they type their name in a search engine, your Blog, with their name, and what you said about them, will come up. I just don’t want to risk that right now. Ok, I’ve had my mind on said person for a while now. I’ve been getting bits of information about them over the course of a year. I actually got to talk to them last week at their place of employment. Well actually I didn’t talk to them, a friend of mine who knows said person talked to them while I stood to the side and tried to think of something witty and intelligent to say. Needless to say I didn’t. I just stood there and nodded my head in the right places of the conversation, and laughed when I needed to, but not my loud throw my head back laugh, but the subtle smile laugh…yeah. But said person mentioned that they broke up with their girlfriend three months ago, which would lead me to the conclusion that this person is not gay. But if you saw said person, the first thought you would have is: gay. Some people are just in denial, what can you do? But I don’t know what it is about this person, I’m not usually attracted to people like him, but I am! This person graduated from SGC this past spring and is going to a four year school near by in the fall.
In this type of situation I would normally A) Give up and bury myself in school work (done), or B) Act like I never liked the person in the first place, and go about my merry business. I can’t do that this time. I have spent most of this year trying to figure out this person from afar, they have me hooked—with out even knowing. I’m trying to get his e-mail from some mutual friends so I can e-mail him and ask if he would like to just hang out, you know, be his friend. Even if this didn’t go down the road I would like it to, he seems like he would be a cool friend.
Well I guess I’ll end it here, my fingers hurt and I need to study for my friggin First Aid mid-term at 5:30 today.
Buenos Tardes!
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
This was fun...
WOO-HOO!! You are Elphaba! You are a feirce Green
Ball of awesomeness! there is nothing you
can't' do...except for taking a bath.
what WICKED character are you?
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WOO-HOO!! You are Elphaba! You are a feirce Green
Ball of awesomeness! there is nothing you
can't' do...except for taking a bath.
what WICKED character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
Friday, June 18, 2004
Guess who had a near nervous breakdown this week? Oh, that would be me! I don’t know what happened, but I just started feeling like crap in the middle of week. I called my mom and told her I was thinking about dropping out of college and hiding in a mountain for the rest of my life. She then informed me that I don’t like the outdoors and I would probably want a hamburger to bad to actually stay in that cave for a long time. But really… this was a really tough week. I had three tests, two of which I bombed, so by Wednesday I wanted to hide away from everyone and cry my little brown eyes out. I felt stupid, fed up, frustrated, and every other belittling emotion one can feel. I think it was the pressure of feeling like I have to do everything right the first time. I feel like there are so many people expecting me to do well in school, and if I don’t something bad will happen. Don’t ask me what this bad event or thing is, I have no clue – but I just feel like that. I called my mother and explained all of this to her and she said (in my mother’s typical fashion), “Don’t give a fuck what anyone says about you. You have proved that you can do anything you want to, if you feel like taking a break from school then you do that—I would strongly encourage you not to do that, but if you feel it’s necessary, pack up your shit and come on home for a good ole’ rest up. I love you and you will succeed no matter what you do in life.” My mother, got to love her for her blunt honesty. That calmed me down a bit. I went off to Subway, got a sandwich, came back to my room and plopped my depressed self down in front of the revulsion, where I stayed for the rest of night. The next morning I felt much better. I go through this every now and then; I just get this overwhelming feeling as if I can’t get anything done and I’m just standing in the middle of it all watching it all go by.
This evening I went to Frier’s house and watched Football (soccer). It was France and someone else, they tied at the end. I don’t really know what was going on—I was just looking at the guys in their wonderful jerseys. But anyhow, Frier’s husband, Mr. Frier, graduated from UGA’s Grady College of Journalism and Mass Communication a while back. He knows I want to go there so he gave me the Alumni magazine that the school publishes every season. Reading the magazine renewed my drive and determination to go there when I leave South Georgia College. During my depressed time this week I had come to the conclusion that I was to stupid to go to UGA and that I was going to go to another school…but after reading through the magazine, I know that I want to go to Grady and become a radio personality on a Top 40 station somewhere and rule the rule…hahahahahahahah…..
Things I have observed and learned this week:
-Some people can’t get over their childhoods….GET OVER IT!!!!
-Sulfur water smells REALLY bad, especially when you have to brush your teeth in it
-Biology makes NO sense, even though it should
-Why are the good ones Jesus freaks?
-Am I still a Christian when I use the term “Jesus Freaks?”
-I wonder if I write well enough to get into Grady.
-I need a new TV
-I need some money, like now
-I have GOT to lose some weight, my heart hurts
-I’m weird
-It feels good to know that people love me
-Even though I have to remind myself—I’ve had a good life so far
-Why does food cost money? Shouldn’t it be free since we NEED it?
This evening I went to Frier’s house and watched Football (soccer). It was France and someone else, they tied at the end. I don’t really know what was going on—I was just looking at the guys in their wonderful jerseys. But anyhow, Frier’s husband, Mr. Frier, graduated from UGA’s Grady College of Journalism and Mass Communication a while back. He knows I want to go there so he gave me the Alumni magazine that the school publishes every season. Reading the magazine renewed my drive and determination to go there when I leave South Georgia College. During my depressed time this week I had come to the conclusion that I was to stupid to go to UGA and that I was going to go to another school…but after reading through the magazine, I know that I want to go to Grady and become a radio personality on a Top 40 station somewhere and rule the rule…hahahahahahahah…..
Things I have observed and learned this week:
-Some people can’t get over their childhoods….GET OVER IT!!!!
-Sulfur water smells REALLY bad, especially when you have to brush your teeth in it
-Biology makes NO sense, even though it should
-Why are the good ones Jesus freaks?
-Am I still a Christian when I use the term “Jesus Freaks?”
-I wonder if I write well enough to get into Grady.
-I need a new TV
-I need some money, like now
-I have GOT to lose some weight, my heart hurts
-I’m weird
-It feels good to know that people love me
-Even though I have to remind myself—I’ve had a good life so far
-Why does food cost money? Shouldn’t it be free since we NEED it?
Thursday, June 10, 2004
It’s the little events in life that make living worthwhile.
I can’t get any type of signal for my cell phone in my dorm room. When someone calls I have to run outside to talk. Jenifer called me tonight and left a voice message, I wanted to call her back so I went outside to make the call. Upon arriving outside, I saw Stacie, Meg, and her boyfriend sitting on some cars in the parking lot having a talk. I walked over just to say hi, but I ended up staying and just talking for about 45 minutes. I can’t remember the last time I did that with people I don’t talk with on a regular basis. We just sat and talked about politics, life, and the stupidity of certain attitudes held by people in South Georgia. They then invited me to take a quick ride to Wendy’s to pick up a late night snack. Riding in the back of the car while John Mayer was playing in the background was nice. I think these are the type of moments in life that I seem to be missing out on. I think I spend so much time thinking about the future and how I want to be successful in life, I forgot about my happiness and emotional well being. It’s nice to be able to put down the wall I have up and just be me. For some reason I have a hard time doing that, in the back of my mind I think if people really saw my true personality they would run for the hills—but that’s not true, I have to get over that.
SO, what have I learned tonight?
-Don’t be such a tight ass (umm, yeah), have FUN!
-You only live once, live it up
-It’s the little events in life that make living worthwhile
-John Mayer is f*&^% AWESOME, and can be enjoyed in just about any occasion
-I can’t wait to get to UGA to make a book full of these memories
-I hope that I can make a difference here in South Georgia
-It’s REALL humid here in South Georgia
-I wish I had gotten something to eat at Wendy’s
I can’t get any type of signal for my cell phone in my dorm room. When someone calls I have to run outside to talk. Jenifer called me tonight and left a voice message, I wanted to call her back so I went outside to make the call. Upon arriving outside, I saw Stacie, Meg, and her boyfriend sitting on some cars in the parking lot having a talk. I walked over just to say hi, but I ended up staying and just talking for about 45 minutes. I can’t remember the last time I did that with people I don’t talk with on a regular basis. We just sat and talked about politics, life, and the stupidity of certain attitudes held by people in South Georgia. They then invited me to take a quick ride to Wendy’s to pick up a late night snack. Riding in the back of the car while John Mayer was playing in the background was nice. I think these are the type of moments in life that I seem to be missing out on. I think I spend so much time thinking about the future and how I want to be successful in life, I forgot about my happiness and emotional well being. It’s nice to be able to put down the wall I have up and just be me. For some reason I have a hard time doing that, in the back of my mind I think if people really saw my true personality they would run for the hills—but that’s not true, I have to get over that.
SO, what have I learned tonight?
-Don’t be such a tight ass (umm, yeah), have FUN!
-You only live once, live it up
-It’s the little events in life that make living worthwhile
-John Mayer is f*&^% AWESOME, and can be enjoyed in just about any occasion
-I can’t wait to get to UGA to make a book full of these memories
-I hope that I can make a difference here in South Georgia
-It’s REALL humid here in South Georgia
-I wish I had gotten something to eat at Wendy’s