Comfortable silences. Have you ever thought why you have it with some people and with others you will do anything to make sure there’s not an ounce of silence?

What makes you look into someone’s eyes and feel that nothing has to be said because everything that’s needed to be said has been through the eyes? It’s a comforting feeling to not have to always search for words and just talk.

What about a connection between two people. What causes one person to be drawn to another? Better yet, what causes someone to be drawn to someone and not have it returned?

Questions to ponder tonight as I go out on the town for a bit. I’m going to be tired tomorrow, but sometimes a little fun is needed in the midst of thought and change.

Ya, know?

Random thoughts for now...will explain later...

If you are gay and you wear your hat backwards, that does not make you straight acting, a top, a jock, or masculine. Okay?

If you are in Wal-Mart...God forbid you have to go there...and you go through the self check out lane: DON'T GO WITH A SHOPPING CART FULL OF STUFF! IF YOU HAVE TO PUT YOUR BAGS ON THE GROUND BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO ROOM IN YOUR SHOPPING CART, I THINK THERE MAY BE A PROBLEM! Okay?

Will explain later.

And the endless search for THAT someone continues. I would love to have a sting a posts that don't involve the search for love. But of course, something always happens that brings it up. Or someone brings it up. I pose this question...how do you know someone will fit you?

I know a couple who seem as if they fit in every way possible. The guys I meet who upon a first meeting it seems as if they would be a great match, never perfect, but I soon discover they have this huge flaw that can't be overlooked. And I'm sure when it comes to some guy with interest in me it's the same. I'm no perfect being as I would like to think. But how do you get over some glaring imperfection in someone you are interested in? There was once a day that it would take me weeks to or even months to finally open my eyes to something about the guy I didn't like. But after a certain someone a few years ago when I first started Georgia Southern my bullshit sensors have been put up and I'm always on alert for the next guy whose going to crap on me. Hmm...not really sure where this train of thought is going...

Ugh. I hate writing about this stuff but it's been in my mind for a few days. I have more I want to say but not exactly sure how I want to say it...do you ever have emotions rolling around your body and blood stream but you aren't sure what they mean?

I'm tired.

I'll try more this week.

The holidays are coming...

Quick little fun update.

Life is about the small victories…

In radio we have a industry website that everyone visits to find out about job openings, who moved to a new job, etc. Radio is ALWAYS changing, so it’s a nice way to keep up with what’s going on.

A post about KISSFM was made because Miss Thang Jennifer Beale is our mid-day girl! But at the very end they announced the new Fall Line-Up…and guess whose name popped up for the VERY FIRST TIME on allaccess.com….ME!!!!

“CLEAR CHANNEL Top 40 WAEV (97-3 KISSFM)/SAVANNAH announces their new fall lineup. "Since DREW CAREY got the 'Price is Right' gig, he pulled out of the race to be KISS-FM's new midday jock," said PD RUSS, who subsequently named JENNIFER BEALE to that position.

BEALE is also the entertainment reporter for the local ABC/FOX affiliate. The KISS lineup now includes KIDD KRADDICK IN THE MORNING (6-11a), BEALE (11a-3p), RUSS (3-7p) T*LOVELY (7-mid) and SPANISH MICHAEL (mid-6a).” <===YAY!

Like I said, it’s a small blurb, but life is about the small victories in life!

Seizing the day. Exactly what does that mean? I've people tell me many times that I am too rigid with life and I don't let go. I don't stray out of the lines for a little fun or to live a little. But what does that mean? Skipping a day at work?

I think the last year of my life was spent discovering another side of my self. Letting go and just learning to have a little fun, but I still have a ways to go. But it hit me tonight while driving through Statesboro and watching people on their balconies talking or when I went into my friends house and him and his boyfriend were sitting there watching tv. His younger brother just started college and walked in with a grin on his face and the world no where near his shoulders. He was just enjoying life. I can't remember a time when I had fun and wasn't worrying about an unpaid bill, my family, my health or any other mundane problem.

So what conclusion am I trying to reach? I want to live. I want to say what is unsaid. I want to look back at every opportunity I was given and know that I didn't hold back.

I think most of all, I want to love. I want the chance to open my heart and let someone completely fill it. I want to know what it's like to completely trust someone. I want to know what it's like to fully open your mind to some one and let them look around and see what's ticking in my brain. I want to know what it's like to have someone surprise me with a random visit. I want to know what it's like to be spoiled and to spoil someone. I just want to know...

Once again, I have no clue what's really going on up there. I just see a bunch of key words in my head and go with it. Not sure if it makes any sense.

I'm out.

Ah, the end of the summer...well "school" summer. People are going back to school. Moving into new apartments, buying new textbooks, figuring out new schedules, making new friends. It all sounds so fresh and new...life on the post college is a bit different. Things are the same as they were back in June. I am moving into a new apartment because my roommate got a new job and is moving on to an awesome new path in his life. My new path has been interesting so far.

The rules have changed. The players in the game always seem to one up you and know more than you. Moving up the ladder isn't as given as use to be. Instead of having two or three years to get out into the real world and working towards that goal of graduation now you work towards paying bills and staying afloat with all that life throws at you. It's a tough game out here and there are no life lines sometimes. No safety nets.

One of my many mental projects is to do better with friendships. Now that I'm "starting" over again, making friends and getting myself out there is harder than before. In school, join a club or the radio station and BAM, there are your friends and then you meet people doing other random things. Now what? lol But I don't want to lose the ones I have like I have done in the past. I'm very bad about keeping in touch with people.

Relationships. That part of my life has come to a screeching halt. All for the better. It's nice to watch everyone else fall in love and then fall out. I hate to seem them go through it, but I would rather it not be me. Harsh I know, but I've had my fair share of troubles and I want to hold off on those for a while.

It's funny to think four years ago around this time I looked at the world with such excitement and energy. I was going to college and nothing was going to stop me from doing whatever I wanted to do. Four years later, walking out of college with that paper I so desperately wanted, I have that same feeling of excitement and energy, but with extra filters I see the world for what it is...kind of. I still believe in the goodness of people and I hope that stays the same as time goes on.

Well, I have no clue what I just wrote about. But I wrote. I wanted to get out thoughts on the paper that have been swirling around the head.

Good day!

Life is so busy. We go, we go, we go and we never stop to just sit and think about what’s going on in life.

I was at work today and decided to snoop around facebook for a bit to break the monotony of the day. I came across a group dedicated to a middle and high school friend who took his own life a month ago. When I first heard the news, it was shocking, but of course in life you get news of something one day and then the next moment something else pops up you have to deal with. I never got time to just sit and reflect on what happened. When I came across this group on facebook, my friend’s father posted a beautiful poem on the facebook group. Reading through that poem opened my eyes. His mother, his father, his grandmother, his grandfather, his uncle, his aunt, his cousins…they were all affected by this devastating lost. They can’t just move it to the back of their minds and keep working - that is a life-altering event. Those family members will continue to rack their brains and think of what they could have done to help Blake. I just pray that their family makes it through the tough times.

Well, with that said, everything else just seems mundane, but here’s a little update. I went to Spring Break in Daytona, graduated from college in May, moved to Savannah in June and am now working at Clear Channel Radio. I’m on air overnights during the week and weekends on KISSFM. During the day, I do a lot of behind the scenes work on the programming side for the radio stations in our cluster. Right now, life is at another starting point. It’s a little slow and not what I expected, but that’s life. I’m getting adjusting to the working world and getting use to working from 10am until 7pm everyday.
That’s it for now.

Since I have been in college, religion has been something I’ve put in the back of my mind. While in high school I was super involved in church – organized total youth day, served as the Communications Director my church, was a youth deacon for years…everyone thought I would be a preacher. Then I went to college, in South Georgia. Seeing the “Christians” in Douglas and how they treated any one who was different, especially gays really turned me off to religion. Recently I’ve had this yearning to be back in the midst of church. The feeling you get when listening to a choir sing, the powerful, uplifting, hopeful feeling you can get when you hear an awesome sermon. I miss those days; I just want to find a place that’s accepting of all. No matter who you are or what you are. That’s what Jesus would want. Lately I’ve been really thankful and counting my blessings from God. God has blessed me with so much in life, success in my career, friends, and stability in my life. I just felt like I needed to acknowledge that in public. Well, as public as a blog can be.

Some things in life that are coming up and happening:
-Job search 2007. School is OVER for me in a couple of months and it’s time to be thrown into the real world. I hoping and praying that all the sacrificing and work I’ve done for the past 12 years will pay off now.
-My current group of friends has to be the most dramatic I have ever encountered. I’ve met lots of peoples and have had many different groups of friends, but I have never met one like this. But I love each and every one of them to death. They provide excitement to my day. I love getting a phone call that starts, “Guess what I heard?” or “You will NOT believe what I just found out!”
-March 8th is a date I’ve been looking forward to for a long time. Not only is it the last day of The Morning Buzz, it will be the end of my stint on 91.9 The Buzz as an on-air personality. I’ll be on for the rest of the semester filling in for dj’s or relay for life, but March 8th will be the last day I’ll crack open a mic on the 91.9 frequency to talk about the days events and share my views on some stupid blunder of Paris Hilton or talk about my drunken weekend or the drama with my gays. This was my first experience with being on-air in a capacity like that. I’m ready to leave, but it will be bitter sweet. The last show will feature old Buzz personalities from the Start of Buzz Late Night Live last spring. Jamie Lynn, Average Joe, J*Magic, and Toni will all be back on the last show with me, Bryan, Caroline, and King Philip. I can’t wait!
-I’ve been talking to someone for a little bit. A new boy. lol Gosh, I feel like I’ve written hat sentence so many times in this blog. I don’t want to give to many details, but I’m really excited.
-If you know of ANYONE IN RADIO WHO WANTS a dedicated, knowledgeable, kind of new person, tell them to call me. lol

I’m out.

Good day.

Soooo, I’m thanking the Lord right now. Guess who is KISSFM’s (973kissfm.com) newest weekend jock? ME! I just got the call a few minutes ago. I did a lot filling in for Kramer, the night jock, during the holiday break, and the higher ups said they liked what I did. I’m so excited right now. I’ll be on-air 12-3pm every Sunday!

Here at The Buzz, we did a test morning show to see if there was any potential for chemistry between Bryan, Caroline and myself. I think we’ve got something good brewing. The first break I did, I said the intro with Jamie’s name. It was weird not having her there and hearing her voice. It was like there was something missing. But I was really proud of Bryan; he stepped up to the plate and did a job of going back and forth with me. I think once Caroline gets used to waking up and the on-air jitters, she’ll fit in perfectly. Now I’m excited to see how King Philip is going to do. He starts with us Monday.

Everyone is back in town and I can see blips of drama coming on the horizon. I just hope that we all can at least remain friends through out the semester.

I’m going to get my car next week. I can’t wait! I’m not sure what to name it. Mike tells me its bad luck to name your old and new car the same thing. I really wanted to name my car John Mayer. Sad day, can’t use it I guess.
Here’s what my new car looks like:


So, right now, things are looking pretty good. I still need to pay rent today. Don’t forget!

Good day!

Another year has passed. Another spring, another start of the school year, another diet, another failed attempt at love. The time really does pass when you get older. I can’t believe I’m coming up on the end of my college career. I’m about to be an adult. I remember being 11 and wondering what I would look like when I graduated from college –I never imagined I’d be slightly overweight! HAHA!

Any who, I’m trying to think of a way to sum up the past year. I think the theme for this year has been self discovery. At South Georgia College, I discovered who I was as a person and what type of life I wanted. I’ve got that down. This year, I rediscovered my outer self. I’ve done more socializing this year than anytime of my life. Kori and I had many parties at our apartment, I had a sort of steady group of friends, I started drinking – everything seemed to be centered on the Miguel outside. This year I’ve made huge strides in getting to where I want to be in my career. I guess I’ll just make some categories and go from there.

School: Before I left SGC, they told us that SGC students had the best success rate when we went on to four-year schools. I thought that was a crock of crap. I didn’t think it was true. Well, I was wrong. I’ve never been this successful at school. Since I’ve been at Georgia Southern, I’ve nothing below a B. All A’s and B’s in every class. Even when I took 21 hours last spring, I still came out with all A’s and B’s. Thanks SGC. I’ve discovered that I don’t suck at journalistic writing. I’ve taken several journalism classes now and I’ve gotten an A in each one. I think my fear of my writing abilities is starting to subside.

Family: This has been the first time since I was a child that people in my direct family passed away. I lost my Grandfather and my great Uncle. Both were tough. Losing my Grandfather was hard, but not as I thought it would be. I think I had prepared myself for this to happen, so it wasn’t a shock when it happened. But with each funeral, I couldn’t help but think about my Grandmother. Even thinking about it now makes me want to cry. When she goes, I won’t know how to, I don’t know, exist. She has been the corner stone of my life, with my mother, and without the two of them, I really don’t know what I would do. But I think what does help is the fact that my Grandmother is completely unafraid of death. She’s done what she was sent to this earth to do and she has done well. I just hope she continues to get the chance to do that on earth for a good 20 more years. lol

Friends: I’ve learned a lot about long lasting friendships this year. I’ve also learned to listen a lot this year. I think the biggest step that I’ve taken with friendships this year is dependency. I don’t think anyone should ever be totally dependent on someone being there with you all the time, but this year I’ve learned to have a healthy dose of that. Last year and even before that, I was never dependent on my friends to be there to eat lunch with me every day or go shopping with me. If no one was around to go with me, I was alright going to eat by myself or whatever. This year I learned to lean on friends for normal friend’s thing. I have people I can call up when ever and shoot the breeze with (shoot the breeze, is that right?). It’s nice to know that if I have a crisis at 3:30 in the morning, I can call someone and they will be there to help me out, or I be there for them.

Social Anxiety: This summer, I stared my social anxiety right in the face. When I went on one of my first promotional events during my internship to a club, I freaked out. Every one could tell that I was having one of the worst nights of my life. After that, I started looking at why I have such a hard time dealing with social settings like that and made up my mind that I had to change that. Going with the whole friend’s thing, that has really helped. Going to parties and random parties has really helped me leap out of my shell.

Career: The love of radio is here and here to stay. A friend of mine told me before the semester started that after doing the morning show for a term, I would be over morning radio. Not true. I love it even more now. Doing The Morning Buzz has been a joy like no other. I love it, my co-workers love it, and the listeners love it. It just makes me happy to know that people like the work that we do.

Love: HA. Well, nothing new to report on here. Still single, only slightly bitter. We shall see what the New Year brings.

So, in a nut shell, this has been a good year for me. The good weeks and bad weeks have balanced out to make a steady year. 2007 will see lot’s of changes in my life. In eight months I have no clue where I will be. That scares me to death. Hopefully I won’t be in a box somewhere.

Happy New Year!

Good day!

A therapist once told me, “There is nothing wrong with you. It’s not you, it’s the other guys.”

A mother once told me, “You are such a great guy, any person would be lucky to have you in their life.”

My mother once told me, “I love you more life itself, I know one day you will find a guy who will make you happy.”

A few years and some months later I’m still wondering if these statements are going to come true. I know, I know, another DRUNK post about men. Sorry. Deal with it. It’s on my mind.

I find the small ironies in life funny. I find my supposed love life funny.

SO, I have to so stop drinking and opening up my laptop. One day I’m going to actually write truth.

Hoe.

Ah, the start of a new month, a new season and fresh drama.

Sometimes I feel like after everything I’ve been through I still haven’t learned a lesson. But right now, I can tell you that I have. I am not doing it again. And it is drama. Getting in between people, dealing with the he said, she said stuff. I just don’t have the time or energy for it. It’s time for me to stop worrying about a boyfriend and start worrying about how I’m going to pay for the meal after graduation. If I am to enter into a serious relationship or even think about one, the drama has to be gone.

What’s interesting about all this is the fact that a couple of days ago, I started to write a blog post, here’s what I had:

I’ve gotten to the point that I don’t blog when something significant happens in my life. I sure as heck don’t like that! I have felt a blog post brewing for a while, but have never gotten around to it. A few times when I was drunk I wanted to post but I decided it wouldn’t be wise. I’m sick of coming to my blog and reading another depressing post about people with testosterone. So, this one will have other stuff in it too.

So yeah, I’ll continue on with that train of thought.

School is going well. I think I will make my first C since I have been at Georgia Southern. My Theories of Mass Comm class isn’t hard, it just requires a lot of thought and reading and my head has just not been in the game. All my other classes are coming along nicely. I guess SGC did get me ready for the big leagues. They did a great job.

The Buzz. I love and hate that radio station. I love when things go right and I can just sit back and listen to some fun, creative radio, then there are other times when I just want to quit and walk away. I guess anything you love this much has a huge affect on you. The morning show is amazing. When we are on, we are on, and I love it. There’s nothing like having someone stop you during the day and telling you that they laughed so hard listening to the show they couldn’t breathe or something like that. I want to do morning radio. Simple as that. My plan of attack needs to start forming soon so I know what I’m going to do.

Life in general. I have generally happy disposition on life these days. Earlier this semester I was down and thought I wasn’t going to come up, but of course, like always, the clouds lifted and I came back. This year I have made some incredible friendships that I hope to keep for a lifetime. I always knew friends were important, but I never have depended on people as much as I do now. Just having someone call you for lunch or just to hang out and watch TV is awesome. It’s nice to know that people are thinking about you and want to spend time in your presence. And I love learning from these people. So many life lessons have been spelled out for me this semester, and if it weren’t for all the good and bad, I wouldn’t have learned.

Alrighty, so as I’ve been typing, the situation from the first paragraph as been playing out in my mind. I have got to promise myself that I will not comprise myself to be with someone because they have shown interest. I can’t do that again.

I’m done. So tired right now.

Good day!

In my continuing quest for knowledge and life experiences, I have racked up on stories, advice, and general life lessons. Probably one of the most important lessons I have learned this semester is: ‘Don’t judge a book by its over.’

That’s a simple lessons, something you are taught in school. But when your teacher sits you down and tells you to stop making fun of the smelly kid and to not “Judge a book by its cover,’ they don’t tell you that the same rule applies to pretty, charismatic people. Sometimes, those are the most dangerous types. They say all the right words and make you seem like the king of the world, but those words are empty and are nothing but broken promises. In the end, you have to sift through the entire BS to find the truth.

Tonight there was a little get together at a friend’s house. Many gays came over, and of course, like I have learned this year, there was drama. You add in food and alcohol with the gays and explosive things tend to happen. This was sub par. Nothing too major. With two new introductions into the equation of people that I’ve never met, it was interesting to talk with them. Found out a little stuff that normally wouldn’t have crossed my eyes, but I have, and it’s interesting to know.

Life otherwise is busy as usual. The radio station, classes, Clear Channel. I’ve got to do everything in between. So I’m out. A little tipsy ( a lot) and ready to conk out.

I have no clue what is going on. I’m tired.

Goodnight.

Good day!

And it seems to happen every year with out fail. The annual falling. The time of year when I meet a guy that seems to change my world. The guy that seems to make everything feel better. The guy that hangs the stars on the moon, the guy that makes everything better, but then a couple of days later you found out that he fucked your best friend and secretly wants to kill you. Well maybe it’s not that serious, but it seems to happen without fail every fall. I just don’t understand. This seems like my millionth post about some boy, but it never gets any better. The pain never seems to subside. It’s sill as jagged and painful as the first time.

Everyone tells me that I need to wait until I leave Statesboro, but I see so many gay people dating and in relationships. It would be nice to have that connection with someone.

Eh.

I’m done, for now.

Good day!

The Labor Day weekend has come and gone. I now feel like the school year can begin. Since the beginning of my days at SGC, the end of the Labor Day holiday signals the beginning of the school year. The first few weeks are warm up. I remember my freshman year how I forgot my razor at home in Atlanta, so by the end of the first three weeks at SGC, I was looking rough. I had facial hair growing everywhere, my hair hadn’t been braided in a while, and I just looked a mess. I went home that three day weekend, met up with my then boyfriend Corey, got my hair “did,” shaved, and just wonderful. I remember Lisa commenting on how I looked different after I had gone home. Ah, those were the days…

This weekend, the last Labor Day weekend of my schooling career was spent doing a whole lot of nothing. Kevin helped me do my room. It looks wonderful. I bought furniture and everything for my room. This is the first time I’ve had a room with matching stuff, a real comforter and everything. Kevin even built the book case and dresser. He also replaced my headlight and dome light on my poor car. Ah, what to do about this situation. My gut is telling me just to wait it out and see. After all that I have been through with guys, one of the many lessons I have finally learned is the lesson of patience. Don’t push or rush things. Just let it happen. That’s all I’m going to say about that.

With each passing week, I move closer to graduation from college. I’ve been looking forward to this day for years; actually, I’ve been looking forward to this day as long as I can remember. But then what? I’ve been working towards this goal of getting out of school for my whole life, and then what do I do? Going into radio is not the safest bet, probably not the smartest, but it’s what I love and what I know. I just hope I don’t botch it up. I just have no clue where I will end up by July 2007. I really hope I’m not living in Fairburn, Georgia with my Grandmother. In my mind, that would totally erase everything I have been working for since I’ve been in school. There are so many options I could go after. Radio is not like some occupations where there’s a given path that you take to get to where you want to be. I want to be a morning show host one day, but there are so many ways to get there. Some say to go and work in other parts of the day as the night guy, then move up in day parts while some advise that I just stay in mornings and try to be a stunt guy/producer for some small market morning show and work my way up. I don’t know…

Well, it’s time for sleep.

Good day!

Ah, a moment to myself. A moment to breathe and take in all that’s gone on. School has only been in session for three weeks, but I feel as though a whole semester has gone by.

I’m sitting at the station, of course, pretending to do homework, but fielding calls about stuff with the radio station, personal love life stuff, and friendship woes. I love my life being busy like this. It feels like I have a purpose, I have a daily mission. Last fall when I got here and I was working at the george-anne, I felt like I was just wondering through the semester without much to grab onto. Last spring, when I parted ways with the george-anne and went to the buzz, life picked up a bit. I did the night show and was at the radio station every weeknight from 7pm until 11pm doing Buzz Late Night Live. Fun times, but it took a chunk away from my life. It’s not like I do much anyway, but that was a crap load. Now I have the morning show, programming and running the buzz, promotions work in savannah, class, and a somewhat respectable social life. I just now cracked open a book for what’s supposed to be one of the hardest classes I take as a Broadcasting major. I feel like a slack student right now. I’m hoping to get myself together this week/weekend. Let’s not even talk about the money situation…

Let’s actually. I’m so broke, it’s really not funny. Financial aid comes in tomorrow and I could not be happier. I have a few bills that are past due, I owe every one and their mother money, it’s just not nice. But hopefully with this little jumpstart to my bank account I’ll be able to hold my head up when someone asks if I want to do lunch.

I’ve been more social in the past few weeks than I can remember me ever being. Lately my apartment has become the gay Mecca of Statesboro. Really. Just about every night for the past couple of weeks I have had a host of gays over. It’s been nothing but interesting. I was so use to having Kori’s friends over all the time I had no clue how to deal with all these new people. On top of that, I have started drinking. Yes. I have started drinking. I am as shocked as anyone. Last week I think I had a drink every night of the week. Welcome to the world of being 21!

My 21st birthday was last week. Had lots of fun! Because of my deathly obsession with food, I had dinner at Ryan’s with a bunch of friends for my birthday. It was cute to see everyone together. Since my friends are kind of all over the place, it’s nice to see everyone meet and have fun with each other. That night we went back to my place and I had a very fun 21st birthday. That’s all I’ll say about that.

As usual, the romantic side of things are pretty much dead. There were a few possibilities when the school year started, but like usual, they faded quickly and I am left with my work and school. Alright by me. By this point in the game, I am OVER it. So over it.

It’s 11:05 and way past my bedtime. My goal is to be in the bed every night by 10pm. Probably not going to happen, but I’ll keep trying to make it in by 10pm.

This past weekend I went to Paula Deens restaurant, Lady and Sons. Can I just say that was the BEST FOOD I HAVE EVER EATEN IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!! Just thinking about it makes my mouth water. Gosh. I want some now. I think I’m going to go back this weekend. I don’t care if it’s by myself. It’s just too good.

I’m tired now.

Good day!

Most people who talk to me know I always joke about the weight that I have gained since I have been in school. Sometimes I’m serious about it, sometimes I joke just to make people laugh – or try to make them laugh.

Today I heard someone saying something about a person and their weight. (Talk about being vague!) I don’t know why, but the comment they said just bothered me. It wasn’t anything mean, but it just showed the shallowness of our society. I’m technically a little over weight, but I just look like a need to lay off a few hamburgers. I can’t imagine what people must go through who are truly overweight. The more I think about it, the more disgusted I get with the way we treat people and what we define beauty as in the U.S. I’m just sad over all for the state of where we are as a people. I talked to my therapist last week and he explained that I sometimes I let myself get too attached or involved with people or situations before I even get really involved. He was referring to the romantic side of my life. I can see this happening. I take each rejection so personally that it really starts to get to me after a while. I can’t stop feeling as if I can’t take it personally. I’m just too sensitive to things that happen in life. I try not to be, but I can’t help it. Eh. I’m just writing now, not really saying anything.

I have a friend who is going through drama with a past flame. Well, it’s more than a flame, it’s a love. I don’t really understand why they keeping coming back together. But after I talked with them, I couldn’t help but think about love and exactly what it means to people. As I’ve gotten older and seen my friends in more adult relationships, I see the crap that people have to put up with from the other person. I get so easily annoyed or offended by people, I sometimes wonder how I would react in the situations I see my friends in. Relationships are work. There’s another person you have to deal with. Another person with a set of beliefs, a way of driving, eating, talking, sleeping, everything…and you have to mesh with that person to become one in a relationship. HA!

Kori and I move in tomorrow…awesome.

Good day!

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So over it right now. So over it.