Sunday, December 31, 2006

Another year has passed. Another spring, another start of the school year, another diet, another failed attempt at love. The time really does pass when you get older. I can’t believe I’m coming up on the end of my college career. I’m about to be an adult. I remember being 11 and wondering what I would look like when I graduated from college –I never imagined I’d be slightly overweight! HAHA!

Any who, I’m trying to think of a way to sum up the past year. I think the theme for this year has been self discovery. At South Georgia College, I discovered who I was as a person and what type of life I wanted. I’ve got that down. This year, I rediscovered my outer self. I’ve done more socializing this year than anytime of my life. Kori and I had many parties at our apartment, I had a sort of steady group of friends, I started drinking – everything seemed to be centered on the Miguel outside. This year I’ve made huge strides in getting to where I want to be in my career. I guess I’ll just make some categories and go from there.

School: Before I left SGC, they told us that SGC students had the best success rate when we went on to four-year schools. I thought that was a crock of crap. I didn’t think it was true. Well, I was wrong. I’ve never been this successful at school. Since I’ve been at Georgia Southern, I’ve nothing below a B. All A’s and B’s in every class. Even when I took 21 hours last spring, I still came out with all A’s and B’s. Thanks SGC. I’ve discovered that I don’t suck at journalistic writing. I’ve taken several journalism classes now and I’ve gotten an A in each one. I think my fear of my writing abilities is starting to subside.

Family: This has been the first time since I was a child that people in my direct family passed away. I lost my Grandfather and my great Uncle. Both were tough. Losing my Grandfather was hard, but not as I thought it would be. I think I had prepared myself for this to happen, so it wasn’t a shock when it happened. But with each funeral, I couldn’t help but think about my Grandmother. Even thinking about it now makes me want to cry. When she goes, I won’t know how to, I don’t know, exist. She has been the corner stone of my life, with my mother, and without the two of them, I really don’t know what I would do. But I think what does help is the fact that my Grandmother is completely unafraid of death. She’s done what she was sent to this earth to do and she has done well. I just hope she continues to get the chance to do that on earth for a good 20 more years. lol

Friends: I’ve learned a lot about long lasting friendships this year. I’ve also learned to listen a lot this year. I think the biggest step that I’ve taken with friendships this year is dependency. I don’t think anyone should ever be totally dependent on someone being there with you all the time, but this year I’ve learned to have a healthy dose of that. Last year and even before that, I was never dependent on my friends to be there to eat lunch with me every day or go shopping with me. If no one was around to go with me, I was alright going to eat by myself or whatever. This year I learned to lean on friends for normal friend’s thing. I have people I can call up when ever and shoot the breeze with (shoot the breeze, is that right?). It’s nice to know that if I have a crisis at 3:30 in the morning, I can call someone and they will be there to help me out, or I be there for them.

Social Anxiety: This summer, I stared my social anxiety right in the face. When I went on one of my first promotional events during my internship to a club, I freaked out. Every one could tell that I was having one of the worst nights of my life. After that, I started looking at why I have such a hard time dealing with social settings like that and made up my mind that I had to change that. Going with the whole friend’s thing, that has really helped. Going to parties and random parties has really helped me leap out of my shell.

Career: The love of radio is here and here to stay. A friend of mine told me before the semester started that after doing the morning show for a term, I would be over morning radio. Not true. I love it even more now. Doing The Morning Buzz has been a joy like no other. I love it, my co-workers love it, and the listeners love it. It just makes me happy to know that people like the work that we do.

Love: HA. Well, nothing new to report on here. Still single, only slightly bitter. We shall see what the New Year brings.

So, in a nut shell, this has been a good year for me. The good weeks and bad weeks have balanced out to make a steady year. 2007 will see lot’s of changes in my life. In eight months I have no clue where I will be. That scares me to death. Hopefully I won’t be in a box somewhere.

Happy New Year!

Good day!