In the midst of a crazy work life right now where I'm always questioning if I want to wake up at 4:00am everyday, I recieved a wonderful e-mail this evening from Listener Jim.

date		Wed, Apr 13, 2011 at 8:21 PM
subject		Maybe you'll be happier...maybe not.

I've recently taken up the bad habit of blogging and today I was inspired by your show which I listen to at least 4 days of the week. I hope I don't hurt any feelings with my comments but I was feeling honest and laid out my feelings/opinions of my favorite radio morning show. I'm not looking for anything in return, no begging for tickets or swag, but I thought you might appreciate knowing how I feel. I'm probably not what you would call an average listener since I love hard rock and heavy metal and I drive a dump truck. Lucky for me you four put on a great local program that I enjoy enough to listen to T.I. just so I won't miss a word of the show.

April 13, 2011

“There’s nothing romantic about surgery,” says Miguel Fuller of my favorite morning show, That Guy Kramer in the Morning. This show is on our local teeny-bopper station Island 106. Though I don’t like most of the music the station plays I love the interplay of the four cast members. Steven Kramer – the ambiguously sexual host is uptight and anxiety-ridden. His personality keeps the show together and really keeps the fun flowing. He has earned the top spot on his show through his Herculean efforts of maintaining control of the chaos that we call entertainment. Holly O’Connor-Sciolino. I probably spelled that wrong but I’m not Italian so maybe I can get away with it. Holly’s got a wild streak that makes her quite delectable. She’s the counterpoint to Kramer and their frictional relationship creates no end of hilarity and sometimes that rare moment of behind-the-scenes type openness that really helps draw listeners into a radio talk show. Her ability to talk about pretty much every aspect of her life without embarrassment or exaggeration adds a wonderfully human, sincere touch to the show. Miguel F. Fuller – Openly gay (not like Kramer) and black (also, not like Kramer). He’s the comic relief most times since he’ll go off on tangents spouting nonsense of racial/homosexual discrimination that he hasn’t experienced in his job. It is, however, hilarious to hear him explode and he’s probably a lot of fun to hang out with. It’s nice to hear him talk frankly about his life as a double-minority and it makes me feel good to hear the acceptance he gets from his fellow cast members. Miguel may possibly be destined for super-stardom if he ever breaks free from the black hole we call Bay County. Mandy Williamson – Mandy is hot. I know it’s a radio show but they have their pictures all over the internet and they host the annual Christmas parade. Holly is attractive but Mandy makes men howl. Unfortunately she has a serious self-confidence problem that is slowly dwindling. It’s been quite nice to hear her come out of her shell. As the only parent on the show we (meaning other parents) get to hear a different perspective on common problems parents face. Since she worked her way from unpaid intern to full time producer the show has become even more wonderful. In review, I really love the That Guy Kramer in the Morning radio show on Island 106. I listen to the program even though I detest the music of Pit Bull, Rihanna, Chris Brown and most of the rest of the station’s music line up. I hope they stick around our airwaves for a few years so I don’t have to listen to the schmucks on the other morning shows, most of whom live hundreds of miles from here and have no idea of what our lives are about here in PC, FL. Without the combination of Kramer, Holly, Miguel and Mandy this show wouldn’t be the amazing program that we know and love. Perhaps these four hooligans can remain friends long enough to see me through to retirement so I don’t have to listen to wind noise in my dump truck at work just to stave off impending insanity.

This job of morning radio can be grueling. I don't think unless you wake up at 4am every day can someone truly understand how it wrecks your body. It's easy to lose focus on why I do what I do. I dreamed and worked so hard to do morning radio and sometimes I completely forget why.

Here's a great e-mail I recevived from a listener that reminds me why I love my job:

from m@BLANK.com to miguel@island106.com date Tue, Feb 15, 2011 at 8:26 AM subject Thanks!!

Hi, Miguel!

I have been intending to email you for a while and am just now getting around to it. I was listening a while back when they were replaying older segments. They happened to play the "If you really knew me you'd know..." and you were talking about your struggles with weight. I listened to this and cried all the way to work, my heart really went out to you.

As the day went on I thought more and more about what you had said and how I really felt the same way. I am always the "funny one" or I hear "but your face is so pretty" and God knows living here I am not nearly as comfortable in swimsuits and shorts as I should be to participate or even enjoy things in the summer time with my friends. I realized how completely tired of feeling that way I really was and that I needed to take control and change things! I am a single parent and I need to be 100% healthy and happy and convey these things to my daughter so that she will grow up to be healthy and happy with herself as well.

I went January 3rd and joined Resolutions Weight Loss in town and renewed my rarely utilized membership at Golds Gym. I have since taken my diet and exercise very seriously and had very few "cheats" or lazy days where I was not in the gym or active. I have lost 22 pounds now and I have to you thank for that! I have a long way to go but I feel so much better already! Thank you so much for being so open, honest and all around FABULOUS!

Best Regards,
Memory

Lord! It's been a coon's age since I've written in this old thing. I feel like the Mundane Misgivings of Miguel is like a old beat up journal. You only think about it in time of great need or boredom. I was having dinner with friends tonight and someone remembered I had a blog! After I finish writing I think I'll take a stroll through memory lane and read some of my posts from high school and college. That Miguel was such a different person than who I am today.

When I started this blog I was 17 years old and a senior in high school. I'm now 25 and four years removed from college. WOW!

I find it harder to write in my blog now. When I was in college I would just type whatever came into my mind. But now, as an adult, the rules have changed. You can't just type exactly what's in your mind because God forbid you offend someone.

EEEK! Now I'm just rambling. Let's just do a quick run down of where I am in life:

-I'm approaching the 3 year mark of co-hosting a radio morning show in Panama City Beach. Never in a million years would I think I would live here. The time I've spent here has been amazing. I've met so many life long friends and discovered so much about myself I wouldn't change my time here for anything.

-I'm living with my boyfriend Brett (almost celebrating a year together!), my co-host on the morning show Holly and her husband Christopher. It's a lot of people in one little ole' house!

-Since my early days of college I have become a bit of social butterfly. I went from never wanting to go out and meet new people to going out all the time. I've been endorsing a gay bar here in PC for almost two years now. I talk about it on the radio and a lot and host the drag shows. That has been so fun to me. It's like putting on a mini-comedy show...well when I'm sober enough to put words together. EEEK!

-My weight loss journey continues. I lose it. I gain it. I lose it. I gain it. I'm sitting a pretty substantial weight right now. I'm so ready to shed the pounds. Next week I start endorsing a local Gold's Gym here. I'll see a personal trainer 3 times a week. I can't wait to start this journey.

Well that's all I can really chew off right now about what's going on. There's always so much to talk about, but I have a movie in the DVD player I want to get to and my eyelids are getting heavy. I'm telling myself I want to spend more time here on this space to articulate more of how I am feeling and thinking this year. Let's hope it happens!