Bullshit. That’s the word I would use to describe the actions of some of our leaders in the Georgia General Assembly. Do you know what there working on? Let me tell you what stupid, outrageous bills the senate and house are working on. They want to ban gay marriage. It’s not enough that gay people have to suffer through all sorts of heinous verbal abuse—sometimes even physical abuse—our great leaders want to legally, and finally take away our rights as individuals to get married.
The next few lines are probably not going to be the most intelligent—I’m too pissed off right now to use big words and proper grammatical structure. But what fucking balls do these old [white] men have in telling ME who I can and cannot marry. It’s crazy. They say that if they allow gay marriage, it will tear at the foundations of our society, BULL-SHIT! Do gay men and women have ANYTHING to do with the high divorce rate in America? No, I think not. Those straight people are doing well all by themselves… HELLO…gay people are MEMBERS of this society, members who PAY taxes, and actually VOTE these people into office—which will not happen anymore. So basically, when these members of the General Assembly get up and talk about how unnatural and disgusting gay marriage, and gay people are, do they not realize that there is some 12 year old kid sitting down watching the news, soaking everything in… those comments and actions that are being taken by our so called leaders are the words that could lead this 12 year old to take his or her own life. I just can’t understand where these people get off with this shit. I mean, isn’t there supposed to be a separation of church and state? Isn’t there? I mean, I think I’ve read that somewhere and have only heard about it my ENTIRE fucking life! Do our own leaders who are running our state and country not fucking realize this??????? They may say that they are just “saving” our society. But really, what there saying is, “Gay people, get ready, your all going to hell!” I get the message, and I fucking don’t like it. I don’t appreciate it. The money that I earn at my job is going up there to Atlanta to pay for these people to pass these laws that would bar ME, from getting married. And I haven’t even gotten into the legal side of the whole issue.
If I were with someone for, let’s say 15 years…and this law has been passed, and I get sick and go into a coma, my partner, the LOVE of my life would not be able to say a damn thing in the whole situation; they wouldn’t even be allowed to visit me in the hospital. I don’t think I will ever understand this hatred that these people have. I just don’t. I mean, to me, I look at what these people are doing as what they were trying to do to my grandparents and mother—not letting them get a proper education, trying to bar them from going somewhere, simply because of their skin color. This is exactly the same thing, just a different group to discriminate against. I wonder if in 15 to 20 years we’re going to look back at these idiots and wonder how in the world they got elected. I’m just so disgusted and mad right now…
Friday, January 30, 2004
Saturday, January 24, 2004
These things always scare me, there so true:
Miguel's Sun Sign is Leo ...
Your sign is that of dramatic Leo, the fifth sign of the zodiac, and the sign of generosity and nobility. Your sign, Miguel, stands for self-expression and the unfolding of the internal power principle. Generous and self-aware, you are truly king of the jungle.
The Sun, defines the dominant traits of your personality and your basic character. This makes you a self-assured, magnanimous, and buoyant person who enjoys being the center of attention, and others often see you as invincible, because your courage and charisma are so impressive.
Miguel, you are the second of the fire signs, which makes you a strong-willed and courageous individual, with great leadership qualities. Your aura radiates magnetism and dignity like the rays around the sun.
You rule the fifth house of the horoscope, which is the section associated with pleasure, creativity, and play. This includes romance, children, gambling and speculation, hobbies, sports, fun and games. Your desire to live out your emotions is powerful, and you constantly seek new ways of self-expression.
The mode of a Leo is fixed, which means that you are passive in your need for admiration, expecting others to naturally notice and approach you. You enjoy stability and comfort, and are generous in sharing it with others.
Your strengths, Miguel, lie in your open-minded and extremely faithful nature. You tend to act as the protector of the downtrodden, and when taking sides, most often root for the underdog. In relationships, you are sincere, genuine, and trusting, because you hold high ethical standards.
However, even you have weaknesses, dear Leo! At times, you have a tendency to become vain and egocentric, and get anxious and hypersensitive when you don't get the attention you want. If you are fishing for compliments and get a dissatisfying result, you compensate by displaying arrogance, and are very capable of delivering a grandiose and exaggerated performance.
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Your Rising Sign is Cancer ...
Cancer Rising, you are a "lunar" personality. That is someone who is emotionally volatile, Miguel, with inexplicable mood swings that seem to occur cyclically. In general, you keep a good deal of anxiety inside yourself, especially if you are in doubt about something. Even though you are sensitive, susceptible, and vulnerable on the inside, this may not be apparent because you cover yourself with a hard shell. You don't like to make waves, and you prefer to stoically endure difficult relationships, rather than taking active steps to find a resolution. You contain a deep inner life, one full of imagination and fantasy, which explains why you are attracted to the eccentric and idiosyncratic sides of other people.
You are a nurturing and hospitable individual, and are drawn to creating a safe place in your life, which is your home and your family. You are the kind of person who goes back to reconstruct your family tree, and rummages through the attic looking for lost memories or objects of your past. You have a strong need to protect your loved ones, showering them with love and affection.
Activities such as eating, sleeping, and sexual expression must be regular and satisfying, lest you become moody or irritable. You are loyal in romantic relationships, Miguel, even overly sentimental at times, and love unreservedly. The impact you have on other people is considerable. By using your highly empathic sensibilities, you are able to subtly manipulate other people's feelings and thoughts, usually to make them feel better.
You require an audience, a group receptive to your ideas and emotions, and may feel hurt and rejected if you don't find one. But in remaining close and loyal to your true friends, you are in a unique position to connect with people, individually and in groups, in meaningful and lasting ways.
Miguel's Sun Sign is Leo ...
Your sign is that of dramatic Leo, the fifth sign of the zodiac, and the sign of generosity and nobility. Your sign, Miguel, stands for self-expression and the unfolding of the internal power principle. Generous and self-aware, you are truly king of the jungle.
The Sun, defines the dominant traits of your personality and your basic character. This makes you a self-assured, magnanimous, and buoyant person who enjoys being the center of attention, and others often see you as invincible, because your courage and charisma are so impressive.
Miguel, you are the second of the fire signs, which makes you a strong-willed and courageous individual, with great leadership qualities. Your aura radiates magnetism and dignity like the rays around the sun.
You rule the fifth house of the horoscope, which is the section associated with pleasure, creativity, and play. This includes romance, children, gambling and speculation, hobbies, sports, fun and games. Your desire to live out your emotions is powerful, and you constantly seek new ways of self-expression.
The mode of a Leo is fixed, which means that you are passive in your need for admiration, expecting others to naturally notice and approach you. You enjoy stability and comfort, and are generous in sharing it with others.
Your strengths, Miguel, lie in your open-minded and extremely faithful nature. You tend to act as the protector of the downtrodden, and when taking sides, most often root for the underdog. In relationships, you are sincere, genuine, and trusting, because you hold high ethical standards.
However, even you have weaknesses, dear Leo! At times, you have a tendency to become vain and egocentric, and get anxious and hypersensitive when you don't get the attention you want. If you are fishing for compliments and get a dissatisfying result, you compensate by displaying arrogance, and are very capable of delivering a grandiose and exaggerated performance.
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Your Rising Sign is Cancer ...
Cancer Rising, you are a "lunar" personality. That is someone who is emotionally volatile, Miguel, with inexplicable mood swings that seem to occur cyclically. In general, you keep a good deal of anxiety inside yourself, especially if you are in doubt about something. Even though you are sensitive, susceptible, and vulnerable on the inside, this may not be apparent because you cover yourself with a hard shell. You don't like to make waves, and you prefer to stoically endure difficult relationships, rather than taking active steps to find a resolution. You contain a deep inner life, one full of imagination and fantasy, which explains why you are attracted to the eccentric and idiosyncratic sides of other people.
You are a nurturing and hospitable individual, and are drawn to creating a safe place in your life, which is your home and your family. You are the kind of person who goes back to reconstruct your family tree, and rummages through the attic looking for lost memories or objects of your past. You have a strong need to protect your loved ones, showering them with love and affection.
Activities such as eating, sleeping, and sexual expression must be regular and satisfying, lest you become moody or irritable. You are loyal in romantic relationships, Miguel, even overly sentimental at times, and love unreservedly. The impact you have on other people is considerable. By using your highly empathic sensibilities, you are able to subtly manipulate other people's feelings and thoughts, usually to make them feel better.
You require an audience, a group receptive to your ideas and emotions, and may feel hurt and rejected if you don't find one. But in remaining close and loyal to your true friends, you are in a unique position to connect with people, individually and in groups, in meaningful and lasting ways.
Sunday, January 18, 2004
The last two weeks of school have been very interesting. But for some reason I have had writers block. I haven’t been able to sit and write an entry, or finish up my latest column for the newspaper. But I think it’s subsiding, I think I just needed a couple of days to get myself together, which I have.
Cory. I’ve come full circle with this person. This isn’t the Cory from Atlanta who I dated for about a month at the beginning of this school year. This is another person I met at school this semester. Since I’m an RA, I get to meet all the new people before they are tainted by South Georgia College. So I met Cory when I moved him in that Monday before school started. Here’s the lowdown: he’s 6’1, brown eyes, brown hair, and about 170#. So of course I was already physically attracted to him. As I spent more time with him through out the week, I started to feel an emotional connection. For the whole week it felt as if we were on the verge of starting a relationship, but that weekend, after spending countless hours hanging out, I found out that he was straight. I was very hurt by that. I just knew he was gay, and that we were going to run off and live together happily for the rest of our lives in happy land. Fast forward to this weekend; everything has changed, I am very happy that not all of our wishes come true. After spending another week with Cory, I now see that if he were gay, and we had started a relationship, I would have had to kill him. We are meant to be friends, and that’s it. I’ve learned a very important lesson from this. DON’T PLAN matters of the heart out. It just simply cannot work like that. Its better just to let it flow, don’t force it, because in the end, yo ass will get screwed, heyyy.
WDMG The Big Dog; the radio station that I am currently employed at. Um, it’s fun, but not a lot of fun. You have to remember, this is Douglas, Georgia, population 5. The biggest store we have here is Wal-Mart, oh yeah. At the radio station I work the audio board for the local sports programs. I get paid for the job, so that’s cool. I’m learning a lot, which will help me out in the end.
I’m listening to a disco cd right now. Yep, I’m gay, really really gay. I just got up and danced to “I will Survive.” Shhhhh, don’t tell anyone…..
My Yoga class is SO fun… I feel like a new person every time I come from the class. The class is every Monday at 5:15 PM. At the end of the class we go into this sorta trance sleep thing, I can’t remember what it’s called. We’re only asleep for probably five to seven minutes, but it’s the BEST sleep that I’ve ever had. When I’m super tired I snore, well Mr. Miguel here snore the whole time he was asleep. In the back of my mind while I was in between sleep and death, I kept thinking someone in the class was going to be super embarrassed when they wake up and find out how loud they were snoring, of course everyone looked at me and politely smiled when I woke up from my deep sleep. I was the person snoring, great, go Miguel.
Cory. I’ve come full circle with this person. This isn’t the Cory from Atlanta who I dated for about a month at the beginning of this school year. This is another person I met at school this semester. Since I’m an RA, I get to meet all the new people before they are tainted by South Georgia College. So I met Cory when I moved him in that Monday before school started. Here’s the lowdown: he’s 6’1, brown eyes, brown hair, and about 170#. So of course I was already physically attracted to him. As I spent more time with him through out the week, I started to feel an emotional connection. For the whole week it felt as if we were on the verge of starting a relationship, but that weekend, after spending countless hours hanging out, I found out that he was straight. I was very hurt by that. I just knew he was gay, and that we were going to run off and live together happily for the rest of our lives in happy land. Fast forward to this weekend; everything has changed, I am very happy that not all of our wishes come true. After spending another week with Cory, I now see that if he were gay, and we had started a relationship, I would have had to kill him. We are meant to be friends, and that’s it. I’ve learned a very important lesson from this. DON’T PLAN matters of the heart out. It just simply cannot work like that. Its better just to let it flow, don’t force it, because in the end, yo ass will get screwed, heyyy.
WDMG The Big Dog; the radio station that I am currently employed at. Um, it’s fun, but not a lot of fun. You have to remember, this is Douglas, Georgia, population 5. The biggest store we have here is Wal-Mart, oh yeah. At the radio station I work the audio board for the local sports programs. I get paid for the job, so that’s cool. I’m learning a lot, which will help me out in the end.
I’m listening to a disco cd right now. Yep, I’m gay, really really gay. I just got up and danced to “I will Survive.” Shhhhh, don’t tell anyone…..
My Yoga class is SO fun… I feel like a new person every time I come from the class. The class is every Monday at 5:15 PM. At the end of the class we go into this sorta trance sleep thing, I can’t remember what it’s called. We’re only asleep for probably five to seven minutes, but it’s the BEST sleep that I’ve ever had. When I’m super tired I snore, well Mr. Miguel here snore the whole time he was asleep. In the back of my mind while I was in between sleep and death, I kept thinking someone in the class was going to be super embarrassed when they wake up and find out how loud they were snoring, of course everyone looked at me and politely smiled when I woke up from my deep sleep. I was the person snoring, great, go Miguel.
Sunday, January 04, 2004
I go back to school tomorrow. Yay for me... yeah. I really should be in bed right now, especially considering that I PLAN on waking up at 6:30 AM to make the four hour drive down to Douglas.
I have a mixture of feelings when I think about going back to Douglas. On one end, I'm excited to go back so I can start the next issue of 'The South Georgian.' But then, I don't want to face being alone. Not in a romantic way, but since Lisa and Gradia have both transferred to different schools, I don't have my buddies with me anymore. That sucks ass. A big fat juicy one, yeah, juicy. But I am excited about the Yoga class that I am staring Monday. Tyler and Frier are going to the class with me so that should be fun.
I haven't really talked about the events of Christmas break, I don't think. Well this is how my life played out for my two weeks back in the ATL.
1) I found out that I earned 3 A's and 2 B's, which means my starting GPA in college is 3.53. (Thank you, Jesus)
2) My Grandmother gave me a DVD player for Christmas, and a brand new computer. (Thanks Grandmother)
3) I discovered how much my Grandmother really depends on me, and how special that makes me feel. (Thanks Grandmother, again.) Also, in looking back on my life, I have noticed how much of an influence my grandmother has been on my life. If it weren't for her, I wouldn't be a Seventh-day Adventist. I probably wouldn't have all the morals and values that I cling to.
4) I went to the Pernice’s, and I really really understood what it’s like to have a “real” family. I love going to their house, they always make me feel like I’m part of the family. I’ve learned so much from them.
5) I had lunch with Jon, yeah, Jon. Wow, we got to work on him.
6) I had dinner with Michael, which was kind of weird, but fun. I don’t know what to do with that whole situation. He still likes me and I think he wants to start our relationship again, but I just don’t want to. I would rather be friends.
7) I finally got over Cory. It took me a while to finally accept that I fucked up with him, but I have come to an understanding with myself, that yes, he was just about everything that I was looking for, but there still wasn’t that spark that I know is going to be there with “the one.”
8) I worked at Barnes & Noble and rediscovered my love for books. GOSH I love working there.
9) I’ve finally come to the point in my life where I’m going to have to deal with being gay and a Seventh-day Adventist, they just don’t go together.
10) I thought about telling my grandmother that I was gay, but didn’t.
11) I went to lunch with Adam, his girlfriend Whitney, and her gay best friend Davis. Well to make a very long boring story short, he wasn’t interested, and it was painfully obvious that he was NOT looking for anything with me, even friendship. (I think)
12) And finally, yesterday I got an e-mail from the Programming Director at the local radio station in Douglas; he wants me to come in and work for the station part time. Learning the board and doing other stuff for them, probably getting lunch and making coffee. But hey, it’s my first real radio job!
One more thing...
Lord of the Rings!
What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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I have a mixture of feelings when I think about going back to Douglas. On one end, I'm excited to go back so I can start the next issue of 'The South Georgian.' But then, I don't want to face being alone. Not in a romantic way, but since Lisa and Gradia have both transferred to different schools, I don't have my buddies with me anymore. That sucks ass. A big fat juicy one, yeah, juicy. But I am excited about the Yoga class that I am staring Monday. Tyler and Frier are going to the class with me so that should be fun.
I haven't really talked about the events of Christmas break, I don't think. Well this is how my life played out for my two weeks back in the ATL.
1) I found out that I earned 3 A's and 2 B's, which means my starting GPA in college is 3.53. (Thank you, Jesus)
2) My Grandmother gave me a DVD player for Christmas, and a brand new computer. (Thanks Grandmother)
3) I discovered how much my Grandmother really depends on me, and how special that makes me feel. (Thanks Grandmother, again.) Also, in looking back on my life, I have noticed how much of an influence my grandmother has been on my life. If it weren't for her, I wouldn't be a Seventh-day Adventist. I probably wouldn't have all the morals and values that I cling to.
4) I went to the Pernice’s, and I really really understood what it’s like to have a “real” family. I love going to their house, they always make me feel like I’m part of the family. I’ve learned so much from them.
5) I had lunch with Jon, yeah, Jon. Wow, we got to work on him.
6) I had dinner with Michael, which was kind of weird, but fun. I don’t know what to do with that whole situation. He still likes me and I think he wants to start our relationship again, but I just don’t want to. I would rather be friends.
7) I finally got over Cory. It took me a while to finally accept that I fucked up with him, but I have come to an understanding with myself, that yes, he was just about everything that I was looking for, but there still wasn’t that spark that I know is going to be there with “the one.”
8) I worked at Barnes & Noble and rediscovered my love for books. GOSH I love working there.
9) I’ve finally come to the point in my life where I’m going to have to deal with being gay and a Seventh-day Adventist, they just don’t go together.
10) I thought about telling my grandmother that I was gay, but didn’t.
11) I went to lunch with Adam, his girlfriend Whitney, and her gay best friend Davis. Well to make a very long boring story short, he wasn’t interested, and it was painfully obvious that he was NOT looking for anything with me, even friendship. (I think)
12) And finally, yesterday I got an e-mail from the Programming Director at the local radio station in Douglas; he wants me to come in and work for the station part time. Learning the board and doing other stuff for them, probably getting lunch and making coffee. But hey, it’s my first real radio job!
One more thing...
Lord of the Rings!
What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
brought to you by Quizilla
Friday, January 02, 2004
Thursday, January 01, 2004
A few things to note:
1) Josh Groban is super cool!
2) Josh Kelley is super cool!
3) It sucks to have to work on New Years Day
4) It sucks having no money
5) It sucks being at home on New Years when I could have gone some where but I was too tired, but I’m up at 1:17 a.m.
6) It sucks having no money
7) I like being black
8) Everyone should see the movie “Babboozled”
9) John Mayer is STILL super sexy
10) I am super sexy
11) I’ve been blogging for over a year
12) It’s time to go to bed
13) Happy New Year!
1) Josh Groban is super cool!
2) Josh Kelley is super cool!
3) It sucks to have to work on New Years Day
4) It sucks having no money
5) It sucks being at home on New Years when I could have gone some where but I was too tired, but I’m up at 1:17 a.m.
6) It sucks having no money
7) I like being black
8) Everyone should see the movie “Babboozled”
9) John Mayer is STILL super sexy
10) I am super sexy
11) I’ve been blogging for over a year
12) It’s time to go to bed
13) Happy New Year!