To make a change…
Stay where you are?
"He who has the goals, makes the rules." - Tyler Perry...something to focus on...
Wow. Today has definitely picked my brain. I have so many thoughts right now and I’m not sure where to start. I’m thinking of several different things right now:
>Weight
>Career
>Helping society
>Passing on a legacy
Looking at the list, I can’t help but wonder how the hell did I go between all these topics? That’s just a normal day inside my head. I’m always swirling with ideas, solutions and new paths to walk down. Let me tackle the first one.
I’ve said it before, I’ll say it again: I’m over my weight issues. It should be a NON issue. I have worked my butt off in so many parts of life. Finishing high school, getting my two-year degree, graduating with my BS from GSU. No one ASKED me to do those things, they weren’t even required by anyone, but I just felt as if I needed to do those things to become a productive member of society. In my ongoing struggle to become a more complete WHOLE person, I have to take the same fervor that I applied to all those years of schooling and apply them to my weight loss. I’m tired of complaining about it, I’m tired of feeling this way. I just simply have to shut up and do it. I feel like in the back of my mind I’ve been waiting for some easy answer to make me be skinny while enjoying the gross foods that I love. When it comes down to it, I just have to change. End of story. Learn to like foods that I don’t normally like. It has to change or I will die. Not being melodramatic or anything…
My career. This has caused me much confusion in the past two years. I made my goal and I reached it…well sort of….I work in radio full-time, I do a morning show, which has been my dream, now what? Do I continue to work up this ladder until something big happens or do I go for something bigger? Now here’s where the other two points come into play. A huge piece of my heart lightens up when I’m able to give to people who don’t have… I know that I want to give back and serve some how. So how do I do both – radio and serve? What do I focus on? And here we are…a cross roads…I’ve had a road map my entire life of where I was going. Has that ultimate goal changed? Is the route I’m going to take different?
Something that really stuck me tonight was Black In America on CNN. They focused on this program called MLT. They take young minorities and give them leadership skills to go on and get their MBA and work at Fortune 500 companies or open up their own place of business. It has my gears thinking…what do I want to do? How do I want to do it? So many questions. I think it’s time to pull out the road map and do some assessing.
This really went no where. I just needed to get some stuff out of my head. Will organize later.
