How quickly we forget the pain of liking someone. Once again, pain has attacked. I don’t know why I am cursed to get involved in these little “things” to only be stabbed in the back, heart, and foot. I don’t know why foot, but that hurts too. Ugh, and what really pisses me off is that I’m a little sad. Not the ‘oh my goodness I want to jump off a cliff’ sadness, but the ‘ouch, this stings a little’ sadness. Some people don’t even deserve that much. From now on, I need to TRUST my instincts. TRUST them. TRUST them. I know I will forget. I’ve probably written a million entries like this before – remember to TRUST YOUR DAMN INSTINCTS man.
Enough. Time to move on. I have two papers due this week and a test on Monday. What a wonderful eventful week this will be.
Good day!
Thought these were interesting:
“They look at me with sad eyes But I don't want the sympathy It's cool you didn't want me Sometimes you can't go back Why'd you have to go and make a mess like that I just have to say Before I let go Have you ever been low Have you ever had a friend that let you down so When the truth came out Were you the last to know Were you left out in the cold 'Cause what you did was low No, I don't need your number There's nothing left to say Except I never thought it'd hurt this much to be safe”
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“Love can be a many splendid thing Can't deny the joy it brings A dozen roses Diamond rings Dreams for sale And fairy tales It’ll make you hear a symphony And you’ll just want the world to see But like a drug that makes you blind It’ll fool you every time The trouble with love is It can tear you up inside Make your heart believe a lie Its stronger then your pride The trouble with love is It doesn’t care how fast you fall And you can’t refuse the call See you’ve got no say at all Now I was a once a fool it’s true I played the game by all the rules But now my world’s a deeper blue I’m sadder but I’m wiser too I swore I’d never love again I swore my heart would never mend Said love wasn’t worth the pain But then I hear it call my name The trouble with love is It can tear you up inside Make your heart believe a lie Its stronger then your pride The trouble with love is It doesn’t care how fast you fall And you can’t refuse the call See you’ve got no say at all Every time I turn around I think I’ve got it all figured out My heart keeps callin And I keep on fallin Over and over again This set story always ends the same Me standin in the pouring rain It seems no matter what I do It tears my heart in two The trouble with love is (the trouble with love) It can tear you up inside (it can tear you up in side) Make your heart believe a lie (Make your heart believe a lie) Gets stronger then your pride (The trouble with love is) See your heart its in your soul (It doesn’t care how fast you fall) You wont remember control (?) (And you can’t refuse the call) See you’ve got no say at all The trouble with love is (Oooo….ya) It can tear you up inside (ooo) Make your heart believe a lie (the trouble with love..)”
Saturday, November 26, 2005
The wonderful time for overeating and family fights. Who WOULDN’T love the holidays?
I made a few observations over this Thanksgiving holiday:
-My great Uncle can not read. He is somewhere in his 70’s and never finished any type of schooling. I never knew that. My Grandmother drove over to his apartment Thanksgiving morning to drop off some turkey and spend a few minutes with him. While they talked, I busied myself with my phone; I didn’t want to intrude on their conversation. At one point, he handed my Grandmother a letter and asked her to read it, he didn’t understand. She read it out loud and he understood. For some reason, that was one of the saddest scenes I have seen in my life. To actually go through life without being able to read. I thank God that I have my education.
-I think I’m an adult. As I was helping my aunt with Thanksgiving dinner, she was very candid on her views of some of the family members. In my family, to say such things in front of a young one is a big no no. Does this mean I’m an adult now?
-Everyone is getting older. My cousin, who I remember being a baby, is a senior in high school and almost taller than me!
-I have an urge to reconnect with my younger cousins. We all grew up together and were born in the same decade. When I moved back to Atlanta from Denver I thought I would spend all my time with them, but as soon as I moved here, I started going to school in Roswell and never got to see them. As time went on, I lost contact, and now I don’t talk to anyone of them besides Thanksgiving and Christmas. I invited three of them to come and visit with me for a weekend during spring semester. One is a freshman in college, another is a senior in high school and the other is a sophomore in high school. I think when and if they come down, I will tell them I am gay. That should be interesting.
-My family has so much potential to be close, but for petty reasons, we are not.
-My Mother is like my Grandfather and my Brother is like my Mother. Hmmm…
-I took my niece and nephew to Thanksgiving dinner. I love spending time with them. They are such smart kids; I just wish I could be more of an influence in their lives. I’ll try to start that this Christmas break. Take them to a museum or the new aquarium.
Other than that, my Thanksgiving break was very laid back this year. Before I went to Atlanta I went to Douglas and spent time with old friends. I had a long talk with Frier (now Futch), saw Justin, talked to Brittany’s sisters, talked to Dr. C and Queen C, talked to Lee (who is getting married in December!), had dinner with Futch, Jake, Kyle and Justin. Carla dropped in and I got to catch up with her. Went to Laura’s house and saw her and Jared. Went to Ashley’s and saw Ashley, Samantha, Catie, Mark and Drew. It was a good trip.
New person in the picture. Scott. From a South Georgia town. It’s all very new – still getting to know each other.
A couple of weeks ago some peeps from the radio station went to Savannah for a ‘Broadcasting’ field trip. Some pics below.
The new morning show is coming. I’m so excited. I’m going to be doing the job I want to have once I leave this place. I can’t wait. We have two names right now: AM Mayhem with JMJ (J*Magic, Miguel, and Jamie Lynn) OR Morning Mayhem with JMJ. Not sure yet which one we are going with.
Alright, well I’m out for now.
Good day!
I made a few observations over this Thanksgiving holiday:
-My great Uncle can not read. He is somewhere in his 70’s and never finished any type of schooling. I never knew that. My Grandmother drove over to his apartment Thanksgiving morning to drop off some turkey and spend a few minutes with him. While they talked, I busied myself with my phone; I didn’t want to intrude on their conversation. At one point, he handed my Grandmother a letter and asked her to read it, he didn’t understand. She read it out loud and he understood. For some reason, that was one of the saddest scenes I have seen in my life. To actually go through life without being able to read. I thank God that I have my education.
-I think I’m an adult. As I was helping my aunt with Thanksgiving dinner, she was very candid on her views of some of the family members. In my family, to say such things in front of a young one is a big no no. Does this mean I’m an adult now?
-Everyone is getting older. My cousin, who I remember being a baby, is a senior in high school and almost taller than me!
-I have an urge to reconnect with my younger cousins. We all grew up together and were born in the same decade. When I moved back to Atlanta from Denver I thought I would spend all my time with them, but as soon as I moved here, I started going to school in Roswell and never got to see them. As time went on, I lost contact, and now I don’t talk to anyone of them besides Thanksgiving and Christmas. I invited three of them to come and visit with me for a weekend during spring semester. One is a freshman in college, another is a senior in high school and the other is a sophomore in high school. I think when and if they come down, I will tell them I am gay. That should be interesting.
-My family has so much potential to be close, but for petty reasons, we are not.
-My Mother is like my Grandfather and my Brother is like my Mother. Hmmm…
-I took my niece and nephew to Thanksgiving dinner. I love spending time with them. They are such smart kids; I just wish I could be more of an influence in their lives. I’ll try to start that this Christmas break. Take them to a museum or the new aquarium.
Other than that, my Thanksgiving break was very laid back this year. Before I went to Atlanta I went to Douglas and spent time with old friends. I had a long talk with Frier (now Futch), saw Justin, talked to Brittany’s sisters, talked to Dr. C and Queen C, talked to Lee (who is getting married in December!), had dinner with Futch, Jake, Kyle and Justin. Carla dropped in and I got to catch up with her. Went to Laura’s house and saw her and Jared. Went to Ashley’s and saw Ashley, Samantha, Catie, Mark and Drew. It was a good trip.
New person in the picture. Scott. From a South Georgia town. It’s all very new – still getting to know each other.
A couple of weeks ago some peeps from the radio station went to Savannah for a ‘Broadcasting’ field trip. Some pics below.
The new morning show is coming. I’m so excited. I’m going to be doing the job I want to have once I leave this place. I can’t wait. We have two names right now: AM Mayhem with JMJ (J*Magic, Miguel, and Jamie Lynn) OR Morning Mayhem with JMJ. Not sure yet which one we are going with.
Alright, well I’m out for now.
Good day!
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Friday, November 18, 2005
Alright, so let's just say I'm a little angry right now. I really want to step on my soapbox but I'm sitting in the library (on a Friday night) working on a 20 page paper. Oh, the paper is due Tuesday morning, but I really have to turn it on Monday.
I just wanted to write that. I'm still mad. lol Ugh.
I'll write more later tonight.
I just wanted to write that. I'm still mad. lol Ugh.
I'll write more later tonight.
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Saturday, November 05, 2005
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
I just want the record to show that I just NOW LEAVING THE LIBRARY. Freak. I have been working on my presentation for Thursday and studying for Critical Thinking. The time is now 4 something in the morning. I think I’m going to go jump into the lake across from the library. Wow. But what this situation even more sad is that I will be here tomorrow (actually, it would be later today), just like this, if not later, to finish up everything. The joys of life. ;)
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
A quick post today...
I just finished doing two hours live of my radio show. By myself. It was awesome. I loved it. I think, so far, I have picked the right path to take. I love radio. I love the music, the people, the listeners, the energy that runs through my veins when I press the 'on' button for the mic and my voice and personality goes out for the world (via the internet) to hear. I love it.
Life is made up of the small victories in life. Today I was asked by the Programming Director of the station if I would like to join the radio morning show. Me? Miguel. Morning radio is what I have been DREAMING about. The current radio morning crew is dismembering after this semester. The show consists of three people, two are leaving, and one, Jason R., is 70% sure he wants to stay on. If the Gods want this to work out, the morning show will be manned by Jason R., Jamie H., and I - all graduates of Roswell High school. That's awesome. But Jason has to decide if he wants to do the show, I have to move my spring schedule around AND we have to see if the three of us actually have chemistry. Even then, the show is not 100% ready to go. If the Programming Director doesn't like how one of us meshes, he could pull one of us off - so there are some hurdles to jump through, but I am happy that I was actually asked. I asked the PD why he asked me to join the show, he said it wasn't because of my talent (thanks), but because of my personality. That was nice to hear.
Ok, I'm about to commence studying for a test and preparing a presentation that's due at the end of week.
Until next time...
I just finished doing two hours live of my radio show. By myself. It was awesome. I loved it. I think, so far, I have picked the right path to take. I love radio. I love the music, the people, the listeners, the energy that runs through my veins when I press the 'on' button for the mic and my voice and personality goes out for the world (via the internet) to hear. I love it.
Life is made up of the small victories in life. Today I was asked by the Programming Director of the station if I would like to join the radio morning show. Me? Miguel. Morning radio is what I have been DREAMING about. The current radio morning crew is dismembering after this semester. The show consists of three people, two are leaving, and one, Jason R., is 70% sure he wants to stay on. If the Gods want this to work out, the morning show will be manned by Jason R., Jamie H., and I - all graduates of Roswell High school. That's awesome. But Jason has to decide if he wants to do the show, I have to move my spring schedule around AND we have to see if the three of us actually have chemistry. Even then, the show is not 100% ready to go. If the Programming Director doesn't like how one of us meshes, he could pull one of us off - so there are some hurdles to jump through, but I am happy that I was actually asked. I asked the PD why he asked me to join the show, he said it wasn't because of my talent (thanks), but because of my personality. That was nice to hear.
Ok, I'm about to commence studying for a test and preparing a presentation that's due at the end of week.
Until next time...