If I EVER take more than one class for summer school, please shoot me! I am up to my eyeballs in work. This crap is freaking killing me—I’m so sick of school right now. I don’t understand the Spanish in Spanish class, I don’t freaking know what fatty acid tails are in Biology, and I sure as hell don’t care about the bodies response to shock in First Aid.. Midterms suck ass – big nasty juicy ass!

I think I am a bit overwhelmed right now. I don’t like to admit defeat, but I think right now I need to wave the white flag, or whatever flag I would wave at a time like this. The newspaper is beckoning me, the Gay-Straight Alliance, Student Government, and whatever freaking else I’m doing is calling for me to work on it. It sucks…yes it does.

BUT, there is one bright spot in all this gray crap…it’s a person, a person here in Douglas. Who you ask? Well I’m not telling. I’ve learned that if you type someone’s full name or parts of their name on your Blog, when they type their name in a search engine, your Blog, with their name, and what you said about them, will come up. I just don’t want to risk that right now. Ok, I’ve had my mind on said person for a while now. I’ve been getting bits of information about them over the course of a year. I actually got to talk to them last week at their place of employment. Well actually I didn’t talk to them, a friend of mine who knows said person talked to them while I stood to the side and tried to think of something witty and intelligent to say. Needless to say I didn’t. I just stood there and nodded my head in the right places of the conversation, and laughed when I needed to, but not my loud throw my head back laugh, but the subtle smile laugh…yeah. But said person mentioned that they broke up with their girlfriend three months ago, which would lead me to the conclusion that this person is not gay. But if you saw said person, the first thought you would have is: gay. Some people are just in denial, what can you do? But I don’t know what it is about this person, I’m not usually attracted to people like him, but I am! This person graduated from SGC this past spring and is going to a four year school near by in the fall.

In this type of situation I would normally A) Give up and bury myself in school work (done), or B) Act like I never liked the person in the first place, and go about my merry business. I can’t do that this time. I have spent most of this year trying to figure out this person from afar, they have me hooked—with out even knowing. I’m trying to get his e-mail from some mutual friends so I can e-mail him and ask if he would like to just hang out, you know, be his friend. Even if this didn’t go down the road I would like it to, he seems like he would be a cool friend.

Well I guess I’ll end it here, my fingers hurt and I need to study for my friggin First Aid mid-term at 5:30 today.

Buenos Tardes!