At times when I'm dog tired or my checking account has hit negative one hundred dollars, I always ask myself.."WHY AM I DOING THIS STUPID RADIO THING?!" Then I remember e-mails like the one I got from a guy who worked under me at my college station at Georgia Southern. I was the Program Director and Morning Show Host at the time. He came on as a fresh baby DJ. I helped him along and after a semester I put him on the night show. He was a great talent but just ended up not liking radio. Well I haven't spoke to him in about two years and then I open up my facebook messages and get this from him:

August 26 at 7:54pm

Hey Miguel,

I was just thinking about you latley. I have Dr. M. S. for theory of mass comm (hate the class but she is cool) and she and I talked a little about you and I was talking with some people that are talking about bringing back the morning show and that reminded me of you as well.

I just wanted to say man, that you just have some incredible talent and it makes me really proud for you that you have really accomplished so much with all of your creativeness and your degree. You were really under-appreciated when you worked here at GSU but the radio station has never been at the same quality you had it at after you left.

I'm not doing broadcasting anymore (mainly because you helped scare me out of it) and am doing public relations instead so you don't have to worry about me begging for a job from you in the future but I definitely reserve the right to name drop when you become a john tesh or a ryan seacrest (i know you just cringed when you read that).

Overall just keep it up man and if I'm ever in Panama City (which may be never but who knows) and your at the station, you should give me a tour.

Take care man.

Sincerely,

Mike O.

-->Wow. On a very bad day, that was a SUPER delight to read. =)

To make a change…

What do you do?

Stay where you are?

"He who has the goals, makes the rules." - Tyler Perry...something to focus on...

Wow. Today has definitely picked my brain. I have so many thoughts right now and I’m not sure where to start. I’m thinking of several different things right now:

>Weight

>Career

>Helping society

>Passing on a legacy

Looking at the list, I can’t help but wonder how the hell did I go between all these topics? That’s just a normal day inside my head. I’m always swirling with ideas, solutions and new paths to walk down. Let me tackle the first one.

I’ve said it before, I’ll say it again: I’m over my weight issues. It should be a NON issue. I have worked my butt off in so many parts of life. Finishing high school, getting my two-year degree, graduating with my BS from GSU. No one ASKED me to do those things, they weren’t even required by anyone, but I just felt as if I needed to do those things to become a productive member of society. In my ongoing struggle to become a more complete WHOLE person, I have to take the same fervor that I applied to all those years of schooling and apply them to my weight loss. I’m tired of complaining about it, I’m tired of feeling this way. I just simply have to shut up and do it. I feel like in the back of my mind I’ve been waiting for some easy answer to make me be skinny while enjoying the gross foods that I love. When it comes down to it, I just have to change. End of story. Learn to like foods that I don’t normally like. It has to change or I will die. Not being melodramatic or anything…

My career. This has caused me much confusion in the past two years. I made my goal and I reached it…well sort of….I work in radio full-time, I do a morning show, which has been my dream, now what? Do I continue to work up this ladder until something big happens or do I go for something bigger? Now here’s where the other two points come into play. A huge piece of my heart lightens up when I’m able to give to people who don’t have… I know that I want to give back and serve some how. So how do I do both – radio and serve? What do I focus on? And here we are…a cross roads…I’ve had a road map my entire life of where I was going. Has that ultimate goal changed? Is the route I’m going to take different?

Something that really stuck me tonight was Black In America on CNN. They focused on this program called MLT. They take young minorities and give them leadership skills to go on and get their MBA and work at Fortune 500 companies or open up their own place of business. It has my gears thinking…what do I want to do? How do I want to do it? So many questions. I think it’s time to pull out the road map and do some assessing.

This really went no where. I just needed to get some stuff out of my head. Will organize later.

I got an e-mail from a listener today that just didn't sit right with me. For a person who talks on the radio for four hours a day, you are going to offend someone...at least once a day. But this just hurt my feelings because I don't want anyone to think this about me. Here's the actual segment that played on the radio Thursday, July 3rd....

Listen to the segment here: http://www.zshare.net/audio/62152184a0c09722/

Here's the e-mail I got from K.T. after the show

So Miguel i just heard your rendition of one of our countries patriotic songs. First off you were never in chains, second your own people sold your ancestors. If you have a problem with this country THEN LEAVE! I'm a operation enduring freeedom Veteran who seen some of my best friends Killed overseas fighting for this country we LOVE. I always liked you as a radio personality before today, i've seen you out and about many times but when you start making fun of something i put my life on the line for and would DIE FOR we have a huge problem. If you continue to bad mouth my country and degrade her patriotic songs i'll break your neck myself! I'm not joking one bit! Think about this for one second we all know what you look like because of your job, you have no idea what i look like or any of my brothers i serve with. PLEASE watch your mouth when it comes to this country. what happened back then is tragic but i wasn't alive then neither was my father or his father. If you want to complain about it then do it some other way not by bad mouthing our country please. I lost all respect for you today and i hope next time i see you out at a club i can bite my tongue and supress my temper. Have a wonderful damn Day. Oh yeah ,Happy Independence Day!

----K.T. didn't provide a valid e-mail address so that's why I'm addressing this on my blog. Here's the e-mail I drafted to K.T...ps. If you are reading this, I would love to chat with you about this K.T.! E-mail me back.

Okkkaayyy…this is a whole lot to take in. I’m hurt that you would think that about me…I LOVE this country. K.T., from your e-mail I would assume that you are a frequent listener…you know that we poke fun at EVERYTHING. We are there to laugh and make fun of each other and everything else. But let me just clear the air a little bit...

1. You make a great point, I was never in chains. I understand this. But if you listen to the clip, I was poking fun at the fact that I don’t know the lyrics. Everyone in the studio started singing to the song – we all were having fun with the song...

2. I was in NO WAY making fun of you or your friends who have fought so bravely for this county. In no way would I EVER make fun of the military. I spent an entire week with the Marines out at Parris Island this winter! I have HUGE amounts of respect for people who go out of their way to sacrifice their life for this great country and the rights that we were ALL granted...

3. Now, I understand that you are upset for the misunderstanding of what you thought I meant, but don’t make threats. You know I’m all about love and peace! I just want everyone to sit around, share a vodka cranberry and joke about life!

4. If I ever talk about slavery on the show, it’s never about bad-mouthing this country. Slavery happened. Whether we want to talk about that or not. It happened. Having discussions on the show about slavery and me giving my VIEWPOINTS about the repercussions of slavery are not meant to slight you or our founders or anyone. It’s just a discussion...

5. Please don’t ask me to leave the country. That’s hurtful and shouldn’t even be part of the argument you are making...

Okay. I hope from the response you can see that what you heard on the radio was in no way making fun of this country...

On July 4^th I’ll be in Panama City waving my American flag like the AMERICAN that I am. If it weren’t for this great country, I would NOT have the job I have. I am grateful for this wonderful country and the ability to wake up every morning and speak my mind on different topics...

If you do see me in public, let’s talk! I love having discussions!! And I hope you know I mean that with sincerity...

Have a wonderful 4^th of July!

Miguel Fuller

Friday was a cluster! I thought I had a remote at the CVS for the Healthfair on backbeach from 5 until 7pm. Well at 2:15 I'm headed out of the station to grab some lunch and get changed for the remote. I'm told the remote is actually from 3 until 5pm. Crap. So I had to retrack my afternoon show and get stuff ready to head over there. It was fun though. I met a guy who use to do PFM weekends. We chatted about radio and how crazy it is. After all that was done with, I went home, got ready and went out for a bit. Went to No Name and met up with a few folks. The old PFM guy came along too. It was fun chit chatting it up with everyone. We then went over to Splash for a little while. If you are friends with them on myspace you get in free and get one free drink. Please believe I took advantage of that! I finally got to meet David's ex, Blake. He's a really cool guy. We hung out and gossiped for a bit. It was a fun night. Got to hang out with a lot of people. I'm finally feeling comfortable here!

Saturday I woke up early and went to the remote from 10 until noon at CVS. A few of the doctors from Waterside said they listened to the show. That was cool. After I was done with that, I went to the station, got some other stuff done and went home. I rented Seven Pounds and MILK. I watched Seven Pounds Saturday night and that's about all I did. I was ready to just spend a night alone, relaxing.

Sunday I worked all day at the Sunglass store. It's always such a hit or miss there. Sometimes we do tons of business, sometimes we just sell a couple of sunglasses. After the store, I went over to the station to edit Teacher of the Week...went to Publix to grab some dinner and lamsil for my bad feet. Ugh. I wish there were a pill I could take to have wonderful looking feet. I think people are cursed with bad feet. Just sayin....

Now I'm about to head to bed. Good weekend though!

Ehhh...this was up there as one of the most boring days of my life. Holly and I went to lunch at Subway where I think I got so many banana peppers on my sub, the Subway guy felt awkward. Whatev, I LOVE banana peppers! After lunch, went back up to the station and finished up a bunch of stuff.

I was finally finished with all that crazy stuff for WAVE and met Holly and Chris at Winn-Dixie to go shopping for food. We didn't have ANYTHING in our poor apartment. I felt bad I had no money to give to the food fund. =( After food shopping, we got home, warmed up a really good pizza and had dinner. It was soo good. I felt like an adult. It had bell peppers, onions and other veggies. I never eat stuff like that. But I did!

Now I'm going to finally finish the gay DVD about religion. I watched a little bit a while ago and almost cried when they talked about Mathhew Shepard...such a sad story. Ugh.

Now I'm off to bed.

Friday after teacher of the week I stayed around the building of death...or what it seemed like. Poor Angie. I called Friday afternoon and chatted with her for a while. =( I did my Honda remote, which seemed to be slightly sucessful since the sky looked like it was about to fall in. After the remote, I went home in a rush, ate the rest of the pizza from Teacher of the Week and watched the first five min. of Enchanted and passed out.

Saturday was crazy because of the weather. Chris Alan woke me up with the text about the Air Show and that nonsense. I went up to the station to record stuff for WAVE and TALK about the Air Show. I stayed up at the station for a while finishing up stuff. Then went home, took a nap, then went into the sunglass store. I worked with Cam for the first time Saturday night. It was probably the gayest thing EVER. We had Britney and Lady GaGa playing in the store. Amazing. After work, we went to Fridays for dinner where I ate EVERYTHING. I was HOANGRY.

Sunday was spent at the airshow...people love their free shiz! After that, came back and picked up that DVD from Kramer. I'm still not done with it. Only got to start it. I went over to Pier Park to pick up some things from Target. Poor ass bitch. Then I came back home to RELAX! J.R. called and we went to Pineapple Willy's for dinner. Thanks for the gift card! I had a nice grilled chicken sandwhich for dinner. Now I'm at the station and just finished editing Most Personal. Now it's off to bed!!

Well...this poor baby has been left without a father for a while...it kept me the end of high school and all the way through college. When I left college, my poor blog went empty. But no longer will that be the case! Every day I write an e-mail to my two co-hosts about what I did that day. Seeing as how only two people see that e-mail, I just couldn't have that! So I've decided to write the e-mails like blog posts and start recounting my days in Panama City. As I get to know more people in their 30's and beyond, I see that they look at their 20's with sparkling eyes wanting to go back to the good-ole days. Well, I don't want to forget the good-ole days. I have my high school and days documented, why not my 20s?!?! So here we go, getting back into the groove of it! My life, at age 23, living in Panama City. (And just to think, when I started this blog I was 18, a senior in high school and living in Atlanta! My how things have changed....

Is anyone else excited it's Friday?!

After the show I came home and made myself a sandwhich. I just discovered Montery Jack cheese. It's soooo good. I think I'm coming into the age where I can starting new stuff. It's sort of exciting. But I'm not going to get crazy with sushi and stuff...just yet...

I took a nap! A nap! I got a nap in! I was so excited. I always feel guilty when I take a nap. Like I'm not doing some work or something. But it was very much needed. After that, got up and went to have dinner with J.R. before work. I saw Mark and Kelly Foust out. Kelly said Belinda has been MIA for a little bit. Not sure what's going on with her. =(

Went to work and learned some new stuff about customer service...

Now I'm off to bed.